Stay on the grind...?
No, just a lil punk tryna make some money for the swag. I have been so into Bape lately, and if anyone knows anythin about the shoe game, yea.
And if you dont know, IT MAKES SUPRAS LOOK LIKE TRASH. Atleast the price. So yep, I've decided that tomorrow before I session with Christina noona, and Christy, Imma go on a first part install job-hunt. Man. This is one of those times when i wish i had mentorship or you know like some older friend to help. But now, asian teenagers are all bums, and our parents buy everything for us. YEA. I SAID IT. AND ITS TRUE. I feel like asian kids like me dunno what its like to be on the grind. I got some experience hustlin, you know just doin what i can to buy all my shit. But in the end, its petty cash. I need a solid job. Sometimes bein on the grind just aint the safest way to live. I guess thats the predicament when it comes to bein a dancer, there isnt a sure guarantee unless you foreal got like a solid teaching job. Thats called grind. And someday, i hope to live that kind of lifestyle. But for now, Imma let my parents take care of my livin, and imma just get money to keep up my spendin habits, which are seriously ruinin my goddamn life.
Ohhhh, and ionno if i already wrote about this, but imma say it again. Damn....
I feel like shes the kind of girl I've always looked for. Confident, but humble. Passionate, but rational. How long have i known her? 2 days motha fucka. But still, ionno. Ive never met an asian girl this passionate about dance. Maybe more passionate than me. I feel like she jjust so real u know? And its like, I'm giving this so much hope just cause I've never thought it possible. Maybe thats just me being hopeful. Am I askin too much? Is asking for the perfect girl just asking a little too much?....
But yea. Again. I NEED MONEY. "Oh shit that I need money." "He no talk, how come he" "I need money, hes a mute." Thats the second time today I've quoted How High. The other was bufu. "Buy us, fuck you!" Love that shit. Method Man and Redman.
Uhm what else. Oh yea. TODAY. lol.... Well basically Chris noona came to visit, so i escorted her around the school, went to visit Mr. Adams, then went to go see Camp. Went to the mall, got a new sweater (T.T smh), and yea. I WANT BAPESTAS, BAPESTAS, BAPESTAS. Fuck, christmas is already over. Damn that. Sayuka was there, havent seen her in ages, my boy Ryan. Hope he goes to the session tomorrow, it be dope to see him and Chris go at it, too bad I make em both look like PUNKS! haaaa but seriously id dominate them.
Man I've just realized, this blog is probably not meant for anybody to read. Cuz seriously if anyone ever read this shit... T.T I'm lucky i never have labels or tags. And that I'm not really the worlds most popular person :P, butchyea..... i just quoted Ashleyy jie there. butchyea.
Aite, wish me luck on the job hunt. shit....
Pce
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
I might be in love
I think I might have just fallen in love. I dont know what the girl looks like, I think she lives somewhere near the Tenessee border, and something about her dancing and the way she treats it is just intruiging.
And lucky me, my big sis Chris's boyfriend is friends with her. I dont understand fate or destiny, but damn.
I dont know how to explain it. I saw her descriptions on youtube, and i feel like she takes dancing the way I do, you know? Like, its not just a hobby, its a lifestyle. She dances sexy, but then its like bam out of no where, some footwork reminiscent of me. She moves with conviction, here and there knows how to shake it, and then back to the music. Damn. I'm gunna contact her via youtube, and I dont know what I'm gunna say. Cuz its like, at this point, I'd be happy just to session with her. And the funny thing is, before i saw her video i was just thinkin about how i wanted to marry an asian girl who danced, and had the same passion for dancing as i do. And then i found her. Ionno, I just couldnt believe it. I didnt know a girl like that existed. Maybe thats why I'm so obssessed with her right now. Because I want to know that girls like that exist. I think I'm just gunna tell her what i saw, and that I'm really impressed and amazed, and that I wanna session with her. Ionno. I dont wanna be all akward and shit, but I feel like if there was anything called fate, this is it. What are the motherfuckin odds. You dont find asian girls who dance around here as seriously as I do. They may say they do, but they just frontin to look cool, ya know? But shes different. Through her movements, I see the energy, the passion, the dedication. I need to meet her. I need to.
And lucky me, my big sis Chris's boyfriend is friends with her. I dont understand fate or destiny, but damn.
I dont know how to explain it. I saw her descriptions on youtube, and i feel like she takes dancing the way I do, you know? Like, its not just a hobby, its a lifestyle. She dances sexy, but then its like bam out of no where, some footwork reminiscent of me. She moves with conviction, here and there knows how to shake it, and then back to the music. Damn. I'm gunna contact her via youtube, and I dont know what I'm gunna say. Cuz its like, at this point, I'd be happy just to session with her. And the funny thing is, before i saw her video i was just thinkin about how i wanted to marry an asian girl who danced, and had the same passion for dancing as i do. And then i found her. Ionno, I just couldnt believe it. I didnt know a girl like that existed. Maybe thats why I'm so obssessed with her right now. Because I want to know that girls like that exist. I think I'm just gunna tell her what i saw, and that I'm really impressed and amazed, and that I wanna session with her. Ionno. I dont wanna be all akward and shit, but I feel like if there was anything called fate, this is it. What are the motherfuckin odds. You dont find asian girls who dance around here as seriously as I do. They may say they do, but they just frontin to look cool, ya know? But shes different. Through her movements, I see the energy, the passion, the dedication. I need to meet her. I need to.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
You got me runnin runnin runnin awayyyyyy
Yes, new Epik High album has dropped!
http://www.mediafire.com/?4xynhtnmufy
to download, but if you're a good person, then you will go find them on itunes, and buy their albums
Favorite songs, Wordkill, Over, and Run. Epik High, even without DJ Tukutz, released an awesome album. Allkpop is calling it a "dark" album. Silly bitches. This is real rap, real hip hop. They dont need to be classified under your pop generalizations. They are experimenting. TYVM
This week has been kinda boring, ordered some new earrings online, and hopefully they come today
School has been buggin me. I cant take Blankenship and Campagna. Campagna maybe, but Blakenship is just a dick. The other day, he actually had the gall to tell me to stop draggin my feet along the ground, cuz its bad for posture. Smh. That dude walks like he has polio, back all bent lookin like hes about to fall forward. Man, fuck him...
Anyways, dance has become alot more fun these few days. Experimenting around. Just freestyling foreal
Yea... Supra tufs are the shit, literally water proof. But i dont get the difference between water resistant and water proof, cuz the Gunnys are water resistant, i dont get that. Anyways, I'll post later this week.
Pce
http://www.mediafire.com/?4xynhtnmufy
to download, but if you're a good person, then you will go find them on itunes, and buy their albums
Favorite songs, Wordkill, Over, and Run. Epik High, even without DJ Tukutz, released an awesome album. Allkpop is calling it a "dark" album. Silly bitches. This is real rap, real hip hop. They dont need to be classified under your pop generalizations. They are experimenting. TYVM
This week has been kinda boring, ordered some new earrings online, and hopefully they come today
School has been buggin me. I cant take Blankenship and Campagna. Campagna maybe, but Blakenship is just a dick. The other day, he actually had the gall to tell me to stop draggin my feet along the ground, cuz its bad for posture. Smh. That dude walks like he has polio, back all bent lookin like hes about to fall forward. Man, fuck him...
Anyways, dance has become alot more fun these few days. Experimenting around. Just freestyling foreal
Yea... Supra tufs are the shit, literally water proof. But i dont get the difference between water resistant and water proof, cuz the Gunnys are water resistant, i dont get that. Anyways, I'll post later this week.
Pce
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Say whats real
Everyday I'm gettin worse,no doubt
that years of fakenes and hateness are payin off
This is what i wanted, i wanted to have clout
To blow the steam and work off landos top
I became a carbon copy of what i saw as the best
I didnt think to seperate myself from the rest
Instead i jsut created a whole other mess
I heap of somethin that aint me, sincerely
Id give those days back if i could just have a chance to be that
one who improvised, devised a plan to be someone
Another guy that people would hate on
But now look at this.Everyday its gets worse
And training isnt an option, because the ugly truth hurts
It hurts deep inside to know that I'm not what i want
And before i get to stuttered up to speak.
I'm just gunna say this one time, and be at peace
I'm a dancer first, a person on the side
I define myself trough my dance, so no lie
One move after another, thats not how to live
You need to dance with yourself, and thats it.
I need to move with myself. I cant keep copying what i see. I miss my roots. I miss what i was. I miss being somethin that i am, rather than somethin that i see.
that years of fakenes and hateness are payin off
This is what i wanted, i wanted to have clout
To blow the steam and work off landos top
I became a carbon copy of what i saw as the best
I didnt think to seperate myself from the rest
Instead i jsut created a whole other mess
I heap of somethin that aint me, sincerely
Id give those days back if i could just have a chance to be that
one who improvised, devised a plan to be someone
Another guy that people would hate on
But now look at this.Everyday its gets worse
And training isnt an option, because the ugly truth hurts
It hurts deep inside to know that I'm not what i want
And before i get to stuttered up to speak.
I'm just gunna say this one time, and be at peace
I'm a dancer first, a person on the side
I define myself trough my dance, so no lie
One move after another, thats not how to live
You need to dance with yourself, and thats it.
I need to move with myself. I cant keep copying what i see. I miss my roots. I miss what i was. I miss being somethin that i am, rather than somethin that i see.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Training...?
So the other day i was talkin with monia online, and I came accross a realization
I've never been much for a connection with the music rather than musicality. In terms of rhythm. I guess its because I started off popping. Much of what i do is based around the freedom of freestyle dance. I prefer freestyle over choreography. I find it challenging, I find that it trains not only my body but my mind. But then theres the thing.
I feel like maybe i take dance too seriously. Monia was talking about how its for fun, i should take it easy. I then thought about how dance and freestyle to me is a lifestyle. Its a philosophy. She jokingly told me how i was like a ballerina, and how they are always hard on themselves about training and perfection. I've never thought myself to be a perfectionist, far be it. Maybe a little ocd, but never perfection. But I've realized. I am a perfectionist when it comes to my dancing. I analyze it the way a scientist analyzes an enzyme. I feel this allows me to appreciate many dancers more. The down side of this is that I'm never pleased with what I do. I feel like that negativity makes me worse. I honestly dont know how to solve this. Its like one giant vicious circle.
Whatever the solution, I've realized that when I say I'm gunna go dance, that means I'm going to go train. Train my self as close to perfection as I can. Which to me is Keibee.... His dance philosophy is like the holy grail key to unlocking the true potential of any freestyle dancer. All I can say is flow. I cant really point specifically, and I dont know how to apply it.
Speakinn of which, JBWKZ coming to Georgia Southern University in statesboro in april, hopefully my friend will remember to buy me tickets on monday. I'm gunna go with Monia ^^ Its gunna be kick ass
Another rant, hopefully nobody reads this part... Damn fuckin kids these days.
Take the most innocent girl you know, virgin skin, pretty eyes, beautiful face, and yes nice body. Now all of a sudden she gettin fucked on the regular by some scum bitch ass nigga (excuse my language). This punk... I dunno. I feel bad for Azya, and for Stephanie. But ya'll hold tight. She'll come around. If I was religious, I'd pray. All I can do is wish you guys luck.
Anyways, 2 new shoes this week! Supra skytop black tuf and OG Supra Skytop green camos. Fiyaaa... And ordered my first pair of raw denim jeans. Gunna be hot when i get em. Gunna have to wear some gay shoes so i dont bleed on em. fuck.
pCe out, have a great weekend!
I've never been much for a connection with the music rather than musicality. In terms of rhythm. I guess its because I started off popping. Much of what i do is based around the freedom of freestyle dance. I prefer freestyle over choreography. I find it challenging, I find that it trains not only my body but my mind. But then theres the thing.
I feel like maybe i take dance too seriously. Monia was talking about how its for fun, i should take it easy. I then thought about how dance and freestyle to me is a lifestyle. Its a philosophy. She jokingly told me how i was like a ballerina, and how they are always hard on themselves about training and perfection. I've never thought myself to be a perfectionist, far be it. Maybe a little ocd, but never perfection. But I've realized. I am a perfectionist when it comes to my dancing. I analyze it the way a scientist analyzes an enzyme. I feel this allows me to appreciate many dancers more. The down side of this is that I'm never pleased with what I do. I feel like that negativity makes me worse. I honestly dont know how to solve this. Its like one giant vicious circle.
Whatever the solution, I've realized that when I say I'm gunna go dance, that means I'm going to go train. Train my self as close to perfection as I can. Which to me is Keibee.... His dance philosophy is like the holy grail key to unlocking the true potential of any freestyle dancer. All I can say is flow. I cant really point specifically, and I dont know how to apply it.
Speakinn of which, JBWKZ coming to Georgia Southern University in statesboro in april, hopefully my friend will remember to buy me tickets on monday. I'm gunna go with Monia ^^ Its gunna be kick ass
Another rant, hopefully nobody reads this part... Damn fuckin kids these days.
Take the most innocent girl you know, virgin skin, pretty eyes, beautiful face, and yes nice body. Now all of a sudden she gettin fucked on the regular by some scum bitch ass nigga (excuse my language). This punk... I dunno. I feel bad for Azya, and for Stephanie. But ya'll hold tight. She'll come around. If I was religious, I'd pray. All I can do is wish you guys luck.
Anyways, 2 new shoes this week! Supra skytop black tuf and OG Supra Skytop green camos. Fiyaaa... And ordered my first pair of raw denim jeans. Gunna be hot when i get em. Gunna have to wear some gay shoes so i dont bleed on em. fuck.
pCe out, have a great weekend!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Its only been a day
Its only been one day, but i feel like its been so long. So much is happening, yet so little. I guess most of it is just personal thoughts. Just I'm always thinkin, but I never writing anything down. Bad bad bad
Anyways, my black skytop tufs came in. I think I've given up on pics, atleast until i get a cable for my camera.
Goals for this week
- Order the cable
- Fill out GSU stuff
- Buy a atleast 1 pair of new jeans, atleast one Cheap Mondays.
- Do all my school assignments
- Write on this blog foreals atleast once
I'm sorta coming together with my wardrobe for college. Gotta keep flossin. Yup. Supra all day. And whatever u know, keep it real, keep it simple.
I'm lookin forward to GSU.
I'm proud that I've kept up this blog. You know, I dont care that nobody reads. Thats not the point for this. I wanna look at this someday in the future and see how much I've changed, how much my life has changed. And what a great point to start. I started basically after i ended stuff with Christina, and its a great transitional period in my life. But yea. Proud of myself. Lets just hope Blogspot doesnt disappear one day, imma be fuckin pissed.
Anyways, pce
Anyways, my black skytop tufs came in. I think I've given up on pics, atleast until i get a cable for my camera.
Goals for this week
- Order the cable
- Fill out GSU stuff
- Buy a atleast 1 pair of new jeans, atleast one Cheap Mondays.
- Do all my school assignments
- Write on this blog foreals atleast once
I'm sorta coming together with my wardrobe for college. Gotta keep flossin. Yup. Supra all day. And whatever u know, keep it real, keep it simple.
I'm lookin forward to GSU.
I'm proud that I've kept up this blog. You know, I dont care that nobody reads. Thats not the point for this. I wanna look at this someday in the future and see how much I've changed, how much my life has changed. And what a great point to start. I started basically after i ended stuff with Christina, and its a great transitional period in my life. But yea. Proud of myself. Lets just hope Blogspot doesnt disappear one day, imma be fuckin pissed.
Anyways, pce
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Update 3/2
So I dont think I've ever gone this long without writing.
So I'm definitely goin to State, but its been a lil shaky. I wanna livin in an aparmtnet my first year, but my parents want dorms. And thers no arguing with them. I dunno. Im gunna listen to em this time. We got in a pretty big arguement last night over it, and if u know me, Ive got a quick temper. So i feel bad everytime i get in a fight with my parents.
They are disappointed in me, i know it.
If my parents ever see this, or in the future. I'm sorry Mom and Dad.
New shoes comin today! Supra skytop black tuf
andddd
I ordered some skytop green camo ogs! Heck yea!
So I'm definitely goin to State, but its been a lil shaky. I wanna livin in an aparmtnet my first year, but my parents want dorms. And thers no arguing with them. I dunno. Im gunna listen to em this time. We got in a pretty big arguement last night over it, and if u know me, Ive got a quick temper. So i feel bad everytime i get in a fight with my parents.
They are disappointed in me, i know it.
If my parents ever see this, or in the future. I'm sorry Mom and Dad.
New shoes comin today! Supra skytop black tuf
andddd
I ordered some skytop green camo ogs! Heck yea!
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