I am a quintessential optimistic loser. Just trying to change the loser part....

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

AND ANOTHER IDEA. As I approach 18, I kinda realize that with age and this responsibility.... Its not about just going off and taking advantage of everything. I need to be mature. I need to make the right desicions.
So some stuff I've been thinking about

I've realized that I'll never get a proper farewell to highschool. I'm not going to graduation, and I'm leaving early. I think I'm going to regret it. Its been a fun mother fuckin ride. I remember when I first started high school. I think the reason I'm going to miss this so much is because I've made so many memories here, and I've had so many memories I never got to make here..... So many people I never got to know, so many girls I never got to.... :P

And its not just leaving highschool physically. Its a mental thing. I'm growing up fureal. Its a new stage in life. So in a sense, it not just memories of this school, but of these years.
Lets think....

Girl in the class
Piano girl
the three amigos

theres just some stuff. I'm sorry to myself, and a little bit to them. I dont know. I need to clear my head.

Schools almost over. Damn.
Phew. Internets down at the house, schools been busy. AP Exams, pullin up a shit load of grades.

Not all of us are juniors. Some of us are seniors and not only have to worry about taking care of school shit, but college shit. Aite? So sometimes its best if you just chill the fuck out like you know me. If I wanna vent, thats your choice whether you wanna listen. When I say if I'm not busy, that means: "if I'm not busy." If I'm busy, which apparantly I have been, then no. If I get a free moment then I'll give you a call. Dont assume things.

Monday, May 10, 2010

For Asian people around my area, I dont really fit the standard mold. Sure Asians around here will wear an ATL fitted, maybe some high top sneaks, but i have yet to see an Asian around here that is like me in terms of fashion. Lemme give u a breakdown of what I'm wearing today
LRG zip up slime hoodie
Crooks and Castles God Guns Money tee
Bapesta Shizuoka's

I mean, most asians have there AF shirt, jeans, that whole preppy stuff. Its just funny. I tend to not fit in. Sometimes I wish I would be accepted despite differences. I've gotten used to being weird and usually unliked, but sometimes I do wish that I'd fit in better.

oh well!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Alright so heres my first reflection on my highschool years.

We're going to take it back to about end of Junior year and the beginning of senior year. My entry into fashion

Now for those that know me (my friends), they know the time and money I put into my personal appearance and my wardrobe. Now I'll tell you. Thats alot. Alot alot alot. Why did I begin my descent into this hell? Let me think. I like to blame FM for the song Fetish, but its always been more.
I love my personal appearance, I care alot about how I look, sometimes for others opinion, sometimes just for myself. And among fashionable people in highschool, its like theres this unspoken race for which kid with minimal paying jobs is the freshest. I like to think I'm winning with the Asians, and somewhere near 3rd or 4th among the school.... But I feel that as you get older its less about competition and more about appreciation.
So that is the first thing I'm going to miss. The excitement of the pickup, and the anticipation of shittin on everyone. Because I feel that when I get to college, school wont be where i showoff. It'll be more outside. And by that time I'll be so focused on school, any cops will just be for me personally. Thats not to say I've never copped anything even though I didnt really like it. But lets face it. Two black Supras? The Black tuf Skytops and Black Suede Vaiders? Thats slightly repetitive. But in essence, I feel like everything I cop will be alot more important and have more quality to me.

Not a very deep reflection, but its a start...

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Blogspot update?

So this is goin on my Tumblr even though I'm updating my blogspot, but the school internet blocks Tumblr.... smh

So the bapesta's are shipped out and on their way, just gotta wait for the ice creams son!
FFamily snapback also on the way. Handdrawn shit is where its at. God I love foreign family. Been on em since the beginning. Fresh since 05

Friday, April 30, 2010


I feel guilty for not using blogspot.... T.T
But chyea here we go

Plans for the weekend-

-Get really freakin good at COD4
-Study for AP gov exam monday
-Order my shizuoku bapestas
-Dance (been a week)
-Order the JBWKZ crooks and castles tee

Nice right?