I am a quintessential optimistic loser. Just trying to change the loser part....

Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year, New Things

Soooo yea. This party was full of ups and downs. The New Years started off really bumpy, first 15 minutes, my mom knocked over a glass of champagne, Ashley's mom fell down dancing, and Chris almost knocked our over our hanging lamp. However, once everyone got a lil drunk, the madness started

Lets get some details down first. There are two groups. The young ones, and then the parents. The parents do the whole old school couple dance. They dont know "our" style of dance. Gettin crunk, gettin jiggy. So, me and Xiao get the idea to bring down my laptop and hook it up to the speakers, and we get a real party started. At first it was kinda iffy with the parents cuz we jerkin, and they're just starin at us like we retarted (no pun intended). So then I put on Cupid Shuffle, and Ash tried to get all the parents involved. And one thing led to another, the kids taught the adults how to do the Cupid Shuffle. Imagine about like 6 or 7 40 or 50 year old, some 60 year old Chinese people, born and raised in China, moved to America, doin the Cupid Shuffle

My parents are cooler than your parents.

After that, the adults wanted me to dance. They know I dance, but they dont know to what extent. Recently I had been practicin Where U At, and I only knew like up to the chorus. So I put it on, dance, wow them, and then Chris was like keep goin!!!

So I did

Freakin, it wasnt the best freestyle ever, but it was enough to impress them T.T

Yea I just watched the video. I have terrible posture. I suck. I need to lose weight, otherwise I look really bad dancing. ><
But mainly posture. One of my many new years resolutions. Get better posture. Lose weight and get a better body.

Get better grades



Anyways, awesome ways to start the New Year. Thank you everyone.


Party about to Start!

This year's party, kinda special to me. No outsiders. Just the close fam. Except minus Kevin. But in a way thats kind of an improvement. Him and Kerry unbalance the scale, as much as i love them new

Ha thats in age order.

To all the close fam that I miss,
Kevin W.
My family in China, xiao gu, er gu, wen wen, na na, ma le, ye ye, lao ye, chen gu fu,
I miss you all. Have a Happy New Years.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

22 hours and 8 minutes

Thats how long we have til we enter the year of 2010. I'm pretty excited. I'm gunna be either too tired or possibly too hung over tomorrow to write any deep shit, so I'm gunna start now. I've sort thought about doing an accomplishments regrets type thing, so here I go

- Becoming serious about dancing.
- Meeting new people
- Getting my first car

Yea honestly thats all I can think of....

- Losing C******* to that bitch ass K****.... Yea hopefully she doesnt read my blog....
Btw that actually leads to another accomplishment, which is moving on ^^
- Fucking up school
- Losing my best friend. Eric, one day I'll make up to you, brother. I'm sorry.

Honestly, I feel like each of my failures has led to a small adjustment in my life, thats made me better as a person. And isnt that what its all about

Chris, I'm lookin back at all the shit thats gone down with us. And I'm not gunna lie, I'm sore. I'm sore about all that shit that went down. I know you didnt like that I took my anger out on you, but then you could have given me a warning. Out of no where. Just 2 days before that we were gettin freak in your dorm. Is that some pity thing? Ionno. I may not be good with girls, but you sure the hell arent good with guys. You said I love you to K after 3 months? And probably before that? Come on. What kinda bullshit is that. Either you give yourself up to easily, or you were lying to me, and you and Kenny had some shit goin on way before you left me. But its whatever. I'm looking forward to you fucking up all that. I'll be your friend, I might even see you at college next year. But if you ever read my blog, and you see this post, remember this. You just lost the best thing thats ever happened to you. You lost a guy that geniunely cared about you.

Eric.... My da ge. I dont think I've ever connected with a Chinese guy like you. Sure at some times it seemed forced, like just because we were two Chinese guys in a sea of hate, we had to hang. But through all that shit and forcin it, I found a guy that I look up to. Yea. Imma admit that. I looked up to you alot. My parents told me that I tried to justify me not bein good at school as an excuse. But when I saw you, you werent usin an excuse. You believed in what you said, you're actions never faltered on your words. Through and through, you were a real man. I feel bad that I lost you, and if theres ever a man that I'll ever shed tears for, its my dad, and then its you. I really lost a brother. I didnt realize it then, and I regret it. And cause of you, I know hate having people take advantage of you. I dont know what to say man. I know I did that, and I dont know why. All I know is that I'm sorry. And when the time comes, I promise I'll make it all up to you. I love you, da ge

My parents. Yea. Sorry.....

School.... Fuck it....

James. You son of a bitch. I hate you so damn much. You're ever trait is so damn over bearing. You're conceited as hell. Get it into your head man. You aint that pretty. Shit, everyone was agreeing with me, that you gettin into JYP or anything was total crap. You might suprise us, but none of us can see you as that. But through all that, our personalities just compliment each other. You give me self confidence, I keep you from going overboard with yourself. Ying and Yang. You my hyung for life, my korean brother. Thanks.

Anny.... Anny.... Anny.... I wanna hate you, but I know that I love you. You are undoubtably one of the coolest girls I've ever met. I know sometimes I take it too seriously, and I'm sorry. You helped me through my other problems, and I've grown to love you for that. You're one badass artist, and I hope you get GHP. And yes, I'll always remember the one golden rule: "Anny is always right"

Anyways, yep. Fashion sense has changed alot this year. Fuckin Far*East Movement, FM. You guys got me into my current fashion sense. Cuz now I got a Fetish for these kicks, and Fetish for these jeans, a Fetish for my hoodie, got have it, I'm a fiend.

dance inspirations
Lando Wilkins (Bang Jenkins! You da best freestyler to ever walk this planet)
Shaun Evaristo (All I gotta say is, Where U At? Nuff said. You beast fucker you...)
Ryan Feng (House AND Popping? You my friend are a genius)
Brian Puspos (In the immortal words of James: "Brian Puspos oozes swag out of every pore on his body)

Thats it!

Everyone have a Happy New Year! Hopefully Im still awake enough tomorrow to write.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


This Christmas break was pretty fucked up. I'm beat, tired, tomorrow is the first day without a party, and I'm still fuckin goin out. Parties here and there, and i used to complain i didnt go out enough.....

So lets catch up. I dont remember the specific days for all the parties, but all I remember is meeting so cool new people, founding out i fucking kill at pool, and finding more dance fam ^^

Christmas party. Basically this mind game, Cerebro? Cerebellum? Cerebral Cortex? Some brain game ionno wtf it was called. It was me hs senior, Chris M.D, Josh vs GT Student Ashley, GT Grad Xiao, Brian vs a hs sophmore, hs junior, and a 10 year old girl. Guess who won T.T. I figured out the standard Chinese karaoke machine has more songs that i know than i thought i did, so basically it was a David Tao marathon for all the guys. Met some new people, really cool, and tried to teach Xiao some dance moves. Hes the Cwalkin/bbal king, but other than that he cant move....

Also had good hotpot at Auntie Wu's house. Chris went, also met some kick ass people. Never had so much fun with people who were almost all atleast 10 years older than me.

Also went to go chilll with James. He got a speedin ticket, honestly kinda funny....
Met up with two girls, Umezuno's, legit Japanese food. Went karaoking, akward as usual since I'm the only one who doesnt speak korean. That was grown man steez night for me and James, so we looked on point. You know I had to rock an all black outfit with the black suede Vaiders.

Also went to the outlet, got me a bair of leather sneakers from Kenneth Cole. Looks like canvas, but its leather. Straaaaight.

And yea, New Years party at my house with the entire Chinese fam is gunna be awesome. Play some games, chill, and countdown.

Speakin of which, New Years is approaching. Everyone ready?

Sunday, December 20, 2009


This weekend was more eventful than all my weekends in the last few months combined.

1. Bought my new Supra's at ambush. I was gunna get the tie dye purple skytops, but they didnt have my size (size 11.5 or 12 hint....) so i just got the Black Suede Vaiders. Not complainin though, they hella comfortable, and classy.

2. Picked up Azya from her shop, went to the mall, met up with some kids (her friends) I think Bryan, Joanna, And Kevin. Sky was there too, that buff ass kid. Apparantly breaking up with Stephanie made him obssesive with working out. I wish I had that kind of motivation to exercise.... FUCK

3. The kids piled into my car, and we headed over to Rusans! Saw Phong, but apparantly she goes by Adrian now. Havent seen her since I dated Jessica. Shes Sandy's big sis, so yea it was cool seein her.

4. Dropped the kids back off at the mall, and took Azya back to her house. And right when i get home, its off to another thing for my dads old company.

5. The dinner was crazy, this 20 dollar asian japanese, korean, chinese buffet. Actually, it wasnt that great, the old Badayori was better.... There was one guy though, goin OFF! Like, 10 plates of food, the amount that gets you kicked out.....


1. Met up with James and went to the studio. Cherry wanted James to teach her some more popping, shes really into it. I just practiced. Got some good practice down, and for once, a mirror didnt kill my style. Just gotta maintain it, and i'll be happy. I really like where i am right now.

2. Went over to Hanssen's house ( right down the street) to hang with him, Supum, and Mark. The usual suspects. Anyways, played some Halo 3, Supum is a douche with the Banshees, then played some rock band, then watched Catch Me if You Can, Tom Hanks and Leonardo DiCaprio. BADASS MOVIE. Cant believe I never watched it.

3. Then went to Abdallah's, havent seen him in awhile. Hung out with him, slept over.


1. Played some CoD MF with Abdallah, went to Chili's with him and his bro, Aladdin. Pretty fun, only Aladdin almost got us kicked out cause he didnt take his ADHD medication.... crazy ass fucker.

2. Went home, did this and that, then for dinner, a bottle of bekseju, some tombstone pizza (BEST), and some watermelon. Fell asleep at like 7, and like 3 people called me and kept wakin me up.... CHERRY, JAMES, ABDALLAH.... you fuckers.... And yea woke up, and here I am!

Tomorrow- Practice with James and Tim, gunna see how the battle situation with Runaway Crew reps work out, then hopefully me and James got that gig at Cherry's mom's work. FUN FUN FUN WEEK

Everybody stay safe, and get your Christmas shopping done early!


Friday, December 18, 2009


So goin to Rusans soon, but first makin a stop by ambush to up my steez. Yea suckas


Then dinner with my pops at this reunion thing for his old company. I used to help out there when I was a little kid, so in a sense I'm part of the fam. It was a small operation, like 2 guys in Taiwan, my dad in the US, and he had a secretary/saleswoman and a British guy named Louis who was pretty cool. I wonder if they still remember the boss's little kid whod ride his scooter around the warehouse. Yep. Those were the days.

Anyways, finals went well, and hopefully I wont be too busy to update. So yea

Everyone stay safe! Get ready for Christmas, and then the New Year!


Thursday, December 17, 2009

One more day

One more day til schools out. Plans for tomorrow after the last exam?

Hopefully hit up Ambush or somethin and step up my shoe game (more Supras!) Just another little kid tryna look cool with 100 dollar shoes. To think that just a few years ago I was rockin the same pair of nike canvas and nike cl dunks almost a year ago. I think I gotta thank Ben Baller for gettin me into Supras.

Then Russans with Azya, Chun li, and Stephanie. Woooohooo. Never been there before... I dont even think thats what its called. Ruso's? Rusans? W.e....

Sunday I got practice with Cherry and maybe James. Soooo yep. This is gunna be an awesome break.

Wish me luck on the fuckin final tomorrow. Peace

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Finals Week

Finals Week
Yea... Nuff said

Leave everyone with a picture

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Its getting close

This school semester is coming close to its end. Next week is finals week, then it'll be Christmas, then before you know it, it'll be a new year. It's been one crazy year. It's been one of love, heart breaks, new loves, new friends,new interests. All I gotta say is, that if you told me to go back and change one thing i wanted to, I wouldnt change a damn thing. This year has been big for me, as a person. I feel like I've grown so much this year, and that i really took this year to do some big things for myself.

Hope everyone has a last good few weeks of 2009.

Back to work!


Thursday, December 10, 2009

Some Random Thoughts

So I've got some thoughts I'd like to get down, just as a reflection

- I need to stop eating so damn much
- My style is progressing, I feel like I'm reaching a point where I can get a little bit confident
- Mtume- To Be or Not to Bop (Whether We Funk or Not) is my new favorite freestyle song
- I wanna start a youtube channel for FOB, and I think I'm, gunna get my first bit of footage today, and upload the first video this weekend. Since its class tonight, its perfect.
- School.... Ugh just dont even.

Thats about it.

Some new things this week
- Alot of new music: Snoop Dogg's Malice N Wonderland. Buy and support. Also Mtume, found my old Twins CD, Some jerkin music thats pretty fun.
- Found a jacket I've been looking for awhile.
- Trying to work on choreography, gotta organize the class so that its fair to me and James.
- Anny.... ^^

Aite. Well class tonight, I'm looking forward to it.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Busy and Frustrated

As the title says....

Busy with:

Frustrated with:
Not smoking
Everything in general

However, I'm gunna try and expand on my dance class by bringing in James from now on. We sort complete a ying yang thing with each other to make the class fun and intense. So yea, good stuff. But my freestyling is lacking. Its like u get to some point where ure body just cant move. Thats where I am. But when i slump, i like fureals slump. Like i cant move. And i gotta work on my posture. alot. I have terrible posture when i dance. Thats my biggest weakness in my opinion.

School, one more week til finals, so i gotta work. I'll definately keep up with the blog alot more after school ends.

Have fun, stay safe.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Thanksgiving Break

Well, I had expected to blog everyday, atleast every two days ish just to keep up, but i got lazy, and tired as fuck. So now I'm going to do a quick run through.

First couple of days- ie sunday through monday ish

Chilled with James, caught up with alot of shit. He pisses me off sometimes, but hes gunna be a homey for life.
Also hung out with Supum and Mark, been awhile since we've done that. Played some CoD, Marvel Alliance, and brought it back old-school when i whipped out my N64. Got our SSB on, and as usual I rocked.

Pics? Not as many as i thought there would be. Why? Keep reading

Dudes got a nice nissan....

Target... Look at him matching

Havin some old fun at Hmart-
Soju man: Inside joke....

Korean resturant, not bad, but they cant spell. Blood became bllod


he looks so sweaty



In hmart


No homo: Me left, james right


I went to see a movie with my baby... Dont really remember how most of the movie went. Hehehe. Couples Retreat is basically Shes just not that into you minus a million. That movie was the shit. Scarlett Johansen... YES

Then went to the mall, and spent 60 dollars on a brush set for her. Didnt know brushes were that fucking expensive. Kinda blows my mind. But w.e

Marias Bday/ Thanksgiving. Didnt take any pics, too busy just catchin up with people. Havent seen Xiao since forever. Hes a big guy now, always workin and travelling. Havent seen Ashley in awhile either. Shes a sophmore or junior at gt, i forgot. Anyways, Ive missed the fam, it was good to catch up. Ashley joked that now there were 3 dancers in our family. Her, Maria, and Me. She just started dancing, atleast seriosly. Some director thing in her sorority.

Friday- Black Friday! So the story is that the night before, well more like 2 in the morning on thursday, I was talking to by girl on Skype. I use a regular desktop, dell, got it a few years ago, not too bad, got a video card upgrade. And I got a bad ass monitory, Samsung wide screen. So that night, all of a sudden, my fucking monitor blows on me. Like just out. Ionno why, but i tried different sockets, didnt work, replaced the power cable with another, didnt work. Fuck it. Next morning I'm at best buy, gunna buy a new monitor on black friday. And I go in, and guess what i come out with?

Yea sucka! (Btw thats me typin up this blog :P)

Looks better in hq, but my camera isnt that great.

Party at Xiao's, ash didnt make it, but Fan did. Fan is Xiaos old friend, they were roomates in GT, and he lives like 2 minutes from Xiao's. The both old as hell, almost 30. But yea a new big bro. We went to Fans house cuz all the kids were playin games on Xiao's tv. We watched the GT UGA game. Bey bey Thomas.... no comment.

Today, just gunna be practicing, getting some work done.

Thanksgiving to me is about just enjoying some of the finer things in life. I've never been one to be like oh give thanks this give thanks that on thanksgiving. I dont need a holiday to be thankful for what i have in life. I do that everyday. Everyday, i just imagine, if i didnt have the people that i do in my life, where would i be. If i had never met Christina, would I have discovered my passion for dancing. If my parents had never given me the lenience to further myself as a person, would i have developed? If I had never met Anny, would my life be as full of passion and motivation as i do now? Just, so much stuff to think about, so many people to thank, it doesnt take one day. It takes a lifetime to be thankful for everything you've got.

So hope everyone enjoyed their Thanksgiving, cuz its time to lose all that weight. I gained 5 pounds when I was trying to lose weight. Time to exercise more and watch what i eat. SMH......

Monday, November 23, 2009


So my dancing is doin horribly. I'm starting to slip. I'm getting lazy, and I'm just not doin so well. Its like I go through these phases where I just completely lose my style and my abilities. I dont know. Its just so damn frustrating when I cant dance. I hate it. It makes me feel like I'm stuck inside a box, and I just cant get out. I want to scream. It makes me feel inadequate, and it makes me feel insignificant. That coupled with me struggling with trying to lose weight. Its pissing me off.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Almost T-giving break!

So these last two days before Thanksgiving Break are gunna be a sunovabitch. I'm currently halfway through day 1. I didnt get to print my damn tshirt in graph arts, i was gunna wear it to class today.

Class.... what to say. I need to focus more on teaching rather than just showing them what to do. I wanna nurture some real dancers out of that group. Idc if Mr. Wei doesnt like it, thats my ultimate goal. And get paid. Definately.... Cuz God knows I need some new shoes. I think I might get some this weekend. Maybe some Vans. Somethin canvas, somethin simple and nice.

I've been feelin a bit romantic lately. Dunno why, but i guess its just that need for companionship.

Continuing on the last two days....
Then I gotta finish my research paper, and then turn it in tomorrow. Then I'm free. Gunna go to the mall Friday, get something for my girl, maybe somethin for myself if budget allows, and then DANCE. Choreography has been my strongpoint lately, but its been awhile since I've got a session down. Also I wanna get a collab thing goin on.... But yea i'll update later, lunch bell just rang, gotta go!

Stay Safe!

So, when I should be working and finishing my research paper, I'm online blogging. Thats just what I need. But I need somewhere to vent and rant. Its 2:40 in the freakin morning....

Anyways, todays class went pretty well. I think it was different. I really connected with the people, and I think I inspired a few people for a few hours... which is enough to keep me going. I think I've found my stride in terms of teaching. Lead by example, but make sure they get room for creativity. Theres some real dancers brewing in my class. I feel like dancing right now has become more of way for me to relax and to truly connect with music on a different level. Like sure, I can go boogaloo on everyone, get into locking, do some toprock, but in the end, I just wanna move the way I wanna move to any music thats on. Thats it. The fact that I'm getting paid to teach people what I love doing simply astounds me. Like, I never would of thought I'd get anywhere with dance, much less a job. But its only the beginning. Like I said, I'm gettin paid junk, but I couldnt care less. I'm doing what I love. Thats more than enough pay.

Anyways tomorrow, thinking about sessioning with James if hes got time. Its gunna be hella akward. Then maybe I might hit the mall, just go around, see whats there. Who knows. But I miss my girl. Damn I miss her. This break is gunna be a good one, I just know it.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

You ever feel....?

You ever felt incompetent? Like for some reason you're just not good enough?
I've been kinda feeling like that lately. My job isnt payin too well, I feel under valued.
I'm starting to realize the kind of scrub I am compared to her ex's....
I feel like sometimes I'm just not the son my parents had hoped for.

I guess I'm in one of those bumps in life. Or maybe I'm just tired, and I'm kinda hoping Thanksgiving break would roll around faster.
LIke seriously, all the teachers been crammin our asses full of exams, projects, homework, all this shit. On top of all that I got a research paper due Friday that will make or break my grade.

So recently I reconnected with a friend of mine. James.
You ever met one of those egotistical sons of bitches that you dont see how you became friends with? Yea thats him
What I've come to realize is that we are friends because we sort of provide a balance to each others lives. I sort of keep him at bay so that his ego doesnt blow up the planet, and he gives me a lil bit of confidence to do the things I do. Or maybe its just I appreciate some of the insight hes given to me in life, and I just feel like I owe him something... --;

ANYWAYS! Back to the story. We actually sorta lost tough after I started dating Anny. The story is that it was the Sprayberry homecoming, and James brought my girlfriend (not at the time) to the homecoming. He had met her at AWA, and they went on a few dates before I think. Now at this time, James actually has a girlfriend that he really likes. Love probably.... But he takes Anny to the Sprayberry homecoming. I think I was the only one other than Anny who knew that he still had a girl at the time. Actually nevermind, all of us knew. So I have no idea why none of us brought it up. So Anny obviously feels weird, because James has a girlfriend whos in New Jersey. So she doesnt dance with him, sort of ignores him. The first time she dances, is with me, and that was a slow dance. I was just standing off to the side, just slow dancing by myself cause I'm cool, and she just grabs me and starts dancing with me. That kind situation kept up the entire night, where she just pretty much talks to me. Maybe its because we are both Chinese? Ionno. After maybe a week or 2 after that, I ask her out, we date, relationship. yea. And James feels betrayed. In a sense I cant blame him, but hes such a damn hypocrite. He was tellin me how I had told him I loved my ex so much. And I didnt wanna even go into our relationship problems, because I thought that was off limits. And he pulled that shit out on me, and I flipped. I was like, dawg, you had a girlfriend, and you went on a date with another girl, EXPECTING something out of it. So yea. Thats the story. Congrats if you read it all

Anyways, I'm considering whether i should go dance with him today, or focus on this last week..... I think I'm gunna focus on this last week

So 2 things occured in this blog entry. I have showed my insecurity. And I've told the story of how I met my girlfriend.

Good bye, and stay safe.

Saturday, November 14, 2009


So I've really been into Kpop lately, life seriously, I'm on allkpop.com all day, even during class. This trend with kpop using electronica is suprisingly catchy. All the Americans are getting tired of the whole like Tpain shit and autotune, and even Jay-z had to step up and take that shit down.
But Korea is thriving on this. Girl groups poppin up everywhere, Rainbow just debuted, even Nam Hyun Joon has his own group that debuted like yesterday on music bank. Course it sucked, just like everything else NHJ has done other than dancing....
Its catchy, and i think Korea's idol system is alot different than america's. Not better, just different :P

Yea I like it better

But anyways, been keeping up with dancing, need to meet up with some people and session soon and show off some choreography. Its been too long, but school has just been tough. Today in phsychology, we took stress tests, and i scored a 460, which is 310 points higher than danger zone. 150 is where theres a 50-60 percent chance of change in your health.... and i scored a 460. Kind of depressing. Anyways!

Tomorrow, or rather today, I'm gunna go see my girl, watch some office, drink some coffee.... Then its lil Ray Ray's bday! Havent seen the Chinese fam in ages, it be cool to see some of em again. Too bad Xiao and Ash cant make it though, but I'll see em soon.

Good night everyone! Stay safe!

Thursday, November 12, 2009


List of decisions

What should I get Kerry for his bday: (6 year old)
What to do about school
Vlados now or wait for Supras. I can get Supras with next paycheck.....
Should I get a new peacoat?
Should I catch up with my ex over Thanksgiving break?
Do I even wanna drive out a good hour or so for a 6 year olds bday? (yes)
Where to find time to get my gift for Anny....

So many decisions. So many possibilities.
One day at a time. One day at a time

And I'm making a tshirt for graph arts like tomorrow or something. Already got the design. Black and white: ( I (heart) TOYS) suckass.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


So I'm at lunch right now, just mulling things over and reading some blogs.

And I started to wonder, what kind of life to I want in the future. Do I want a 9 to 5 job, wife and kids? Do I wanna travel the world and be a rockstar (if i have the talent). I want a balance. I wanna be able to travel the world quietly. I wanna have that sense of not being just one of those rockstars. I wanna be respected in what I do (dancing), and for that I wanna be able to travel the world. When I mean world, I dont mean exotic, but just to meet new people and absorb a lil culture. I dont mind not having a fast paced life. I actually want the opposite. I want an exciting life, but a quiet one. Teachin classes, performing, workshops. A dancers life doesnt have to be all glam. It can be one of just being respected, and having fun with what you do with life.

Anywaysssssss. So I found out I have alot more shit for school than I thought. Tomorrow is WEB, so I get a lil more time to catch up with school work and make up some shit. Class thursday, and I still gotta work on my lit video project due thursday, and I still gotta personal shit to take care of.....

Stay safe!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Update? Long Week Ahead

So last week my class was a pretty good success. Overall the kids follow choreography well, even if their basics are down in the dumps. I blame the teacher before me ><

This week.... what do I have on my checklist this week

Research paper for lit. God I hate that class. I've never gotten below an A in lit, then all of a sudden I'm failing that shit.

Class this Thursday. I'm debating whether to teach them basic breaking, if i even qualify to teach breaking for that matter. But I really wanna give em some of that old school shit, you know, rock steady, boogaloo, lockers, rather than just that conventional hip hop they are used to.

Catch up on sleep. I have this thing where i need atleast 10 hours of sleep one night a week. But so far its been a good 3 weeks since I've gotten atleast one night of 10 hours of sleep.

Study for my classes in general. Last stretch. Gotta work hard

Lit group project. This bitch is so damn tough. A research paper thats like worth 8 times, and a video project. Its ridiculous

Finally, I gotta get together my one month gift for Anny. Its gunna take alooot of time and alot of effort. But like I told her. Shes worth every dollar from my wallet, every particle of energy, every brainwave used, and every hour of sleep lost. Shes worth it.

Anyways, this week its gunna be kinda lonely. Shes got a ton of stuff, wont go into that.

"If even God had problems dealing with his children, Adam and Eve, how do you expect to do better as a father?"
My dad should take a page from Bill Cosby....

I've really been getting into Community Channel. Natalie Nguyen is the coolest person ever. Hands down. She talks about stuff all of us can relate to. And she makes it funny. And in some weird, creepy way, shes really attractive....

Wish me luck on a hectic week.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

My First Class

Tonight is my first class.... Wish me luck!
I'll post some photos tonight if I get a chance. But yea I'm really excited.

Wish I had my special someone with me there though..... I miss her

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The World is Mine for the Takin

"The world is mine for the taking, make me king."

Eminem said that once, and I think that really struck a chord with me. Lately I've been thinkin about my dream to be a dancer. I remember when I started, it was just to be cool. Lookin back on that, I'm slightly regretful that I didnt take it seriously til i met a girl that i loved. But thats over, and now its become my life. I recently (today) got a job as a dance teacher at a Chinese dance school my friend goes to. This is such a big step for me. With ABDC and all those dance shows around, dancing has become something anyone can appreciate. But then theres the predicament. Do I want to teach others and spread my knowledge? Or do I wanna hog it and become the best.
Thats when I realized that its not about bein the best in world, but bein the best dancer I can be. I found a new interpretation for that quote. The world is mine for the taking. I am the world. I am my own world. I need to conquer myself, and that is honestly the most I can do for myself and the world. And I owe it to the world to give back what it has given to me.

Also I've reconciliated with my ex. I've accepted it. And I'm movin on with life.

Deep, right?

Cant wait til Thursday, first class! I'll upload some pictures.... I'm debating whether I should do choreography for Lollipop- Big Bang ft 2NE1, or Uptown- Drake ft Bun B and Lil Wayne.....

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Halloween Weekend

So this halloween weekend was kind of uneventful in terms of parties. I hit up one party, and since i promised Anny I wouldnt smoke, drink, or get high. So it wasnt anything too fun.... Anyways!

Thursday, I attended the first rehearsal thing for Anny's one act play competition. Shes a drama kid, so it was fun. I'm not much of a theater person, but this was a fun experience. Their play was called: "Neighborhood 3: Requisition of Doom". Long story short, dont let your kids play scary video games...

The stage

Friday, I sorta just got home and chilled. The weather is terrible. I know that its like a change of scene from our usual sun filled days, but its starting to annoy people. But ionno, I kinda like it...

Saturday (Halloween) I went to go see the one act competition that their drama kids entered. Hillgrove placed 2nd, and the actress in their group that i liked the most got overall best actress. Sooooo kind of an exciting day. Ionno I feel like I've been hooked, and for some weird reason I felt proud of them. The thing about a one act play competition is that not only do they judge on how well you act, but also on a time. 55 minutes is the limit, and on Thursday when I saw em they were over, but saturday it was picture perfect. Even though they got 2nd, you could tell they were the crowd favorite.

In my car. Cleaned it out on Friday, its soooo nice now ><

Fresh much? I need to cop a pair of Societies when i get paid

Middle of freakin nowhere. Seriously, if you gave me a map of GA, I do not know where the hell i am...\

The stage.... Smaller, but it was to their advantage, not as much echo, so you could hear them better.

My Anny... so pretty

So today, I've just been chillin, doin some hw, had dumplings for dinner... Yep lazy Sundays are the best.

Stay safe!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Been awhile

So today I went to the studio for some personal meditation and some freestyling

What I had no expected was to get some answers

Dancing has always been my outlet, I dunno what I'd do without it. Its been with me through everything since like middle school, and though it wasnt til recently that I decided to take it a little more seriously (my life), I'm still proud of myself for keeping up with it

Funnily enough freestyling turned into some choreography. So far I've got a lil set for Lollipop- Big Bang ft 2NE1 and Uptown- Drake... GOD I LOVE SOREAL CRU. Why is Brian Puspos so damn nasty? Like, why did God allocate so much swagger into him when he was bein made up there....
I'm starting to get a hang of choreography, but I love freestyling more. Just gotta get more variety, and I need to not think to much, but feel it. I'm still having a problem with that. Once in awhile, I'll reach that mode where I can seriously feel the music. But thats usually when I dont have a mirror in front and I can see how fat I am....

DOOD. I need to lose some weight. Having a new girlfriend means I need to try..... Crap. And I gotta get some for school. I cannot wait til I get into college, and I can sorta live my life a lil more.....

Well the rest of the night will consist of drinkin some good ol' yeo soymilk, watch some Family Guy, study a lil, and sing my baby to sleep ^^

me at the studio. Couldnt find my damn camera, had to settle for my phone camera.... I need to record my choreography...

See you all later

Monday, October 26, 2009

New things

aint she pretty?

So how much has happened?


Christina left me for another guy ( to my understanding), and maybe this blog will help me.

I've found another girl, a girl that I really connect with. Shes an artist ><>

I got a class to teach i think ever saturday now, at a local chinese dance school. Should be fun


Its like love again. Falling in love. The first kiss. That time you sang to her. I think this is the first traditional relationship I've ever had. Maybe its because I have a car.... T.T

But this feeling is something I've never felt. I think they call this.... falling for someone. Shes just so... bright. So brilliant. So.... right?

Yea... so right

Schools kicking my butt, I'm gunna take care of all my problems and try to balance things out. I think I need a good nights sleep....

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Lake Lanier+Chris Suprise Bday

So two days ago I went to lake lanier with chris, and some of her viet friends from church. Lake Lanier got a new waterpark, and we had some fun, and i got burned like freakin bacon...

Me and Chris

Chinh looks like one of those kids from the feed Africa ads :X

Jamie fell asleep

And then yesterday was Christina's bday, so about 2 weeks before, i planned a suprise bday party. Only a few people came, but it was still a success.

Xin Yu and Missy lookin at XY's pants...

The table.

The cake
So-Mi, the only present giver XD

Anyways, plans for this week are to find a job, and make a good impression at the FSA auditions next saturday. Its high time I found a real crew and make some real progress.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

First Blog

So ive always wanted to get a blog. After readin Ben baller for almost a year, and my friend Sayuka gettin one, I guess it was high time to get one too

So today was pretty good compared to my last two days. Went to the doctor and figured out that i had a minor ear infection. (lost a bet to Chris T.T). Got some prescription for it, but didnt really need it that much, so im just gunna wait it out

Then took Sonny (VW GTi, pics tomorrow hopefully), and picked up Chris to go to the Y. Got some good practice in, fav of all day was actually Take Control by Amerie ft Se7en. Havent used that song in ages, its always got some good parts if u know the song well enough.

So funny story, that day i decided to floss my green jbwkz stack shirt, and when i walked into the Y, some people who were working up front were like: "holy shit are jabbawockeez?" And I'm just like..... uhhh no sorry... Really akward. Probably one of the last times i wear my jabbawockeez shirt, its kinda embarresing.

Anyways, then we went to panda express, i think im in love with orange chicken (and tomorrow I wont...)

Anyways I just got home from what started out as a duty call for one of my more weirder friends, Eric Lei. You ever met one of those guys who hates you, and you hate him, but somehow u two are like close as hell? Yea well the man is a workin man, Johnny Rockets, host. I gave him a ride home, then Jk called me up. This girl is the type of girl who u hate her guts, but shes fun to be around. You'd never go to her for help, but ud always wanna invite her to a party. Anyways we meet for coffee, her lil sis ( who is in my class) is also there, Jennifer Kim. Good ol grouchy Jennifer, we catch up, talk about cars, life, and I come home.

Anyways tomorrow is Lake Lanier with C-Neezy >< Gunna be a fun road trip, some of her old friends from her church are goin, so its gunna be interesting. Have pics up definately.