AND ANOTHER IDEA. As I approach 18, I kinda realize that with age and this responsibility.... Its not about just going off and taking advantage of everything. I need to be mature. I need to make the right desicions.

So some stuff I've been thinking about

I've realized that I'll never get a proper farewell to highschool. I'm not going to graduation, and I'm leaving early. I think I'm going to regret it. Its been a fun mother fuckin ride. I remember when I first started high school. I think the reason I'm going to miss this so much is because I've made so many memories here, and I've had so many memories I never got to make here..... So many people I never got to know, so many girls I never got to.... :P

And its not just leaving highschool physically. Its a mental thing. I'm growing up fureal. Its a new stage in life. So in a sense, it not just memories of this school, but of these years.
Lets think....

Girl in the class
Piano girl
the three amigos
grades

theres just some stuff. I'm sorry to myself, and a little bit to them. I dont know. I need to clear my head.

Schools almost over. Damn.

Phew. Internets down at the house, schools been busy. AP Exams, pullin up a shit load of grades.

Not all of us are juniors. Some of us are seniors and not only have to worry about taking care of school shit, but college shit. Aite? So sometimes its best if you just chill the fuck out like you know me. If I wanna vent, thats your choice whether you wanna listen. When I say if I'm not busy, that means: "if I'm not busy." If I'm busy, which apparantly I have been, then no. If I get a free moment then I'll give you a call. Dont assume things.

For Asian people around my area, I dont really fit the standard mold. Sure Asians around here will wear an ATL fitted, maybe some high top sneaks, but i have yet to see an Asian around here that is like me in terms of fashion. Lemme give u a breakdown of what I'm wearing today
LRG zip up slime hoodie
Crooks and Castles God Guns Money tee
Bapesta Shizuoka's

I mean, most asians have there AF shirt, jeans, that whole preppy stuff. Its just funny. I tend to not fit in. Sometimes I wish I would be accepted despite differences. I've gotten used to being weird and usually unliked, but sometimes I do wish that I'd fit in better.

oh well!

Alright so heres my first reflection on my highschool years.

We're going to take it back to about end of Junior year and the beginning of senior year. My entry into fashion

Now for those that know me (my friends), they know the time and money I put into my personal appearance and my wardrobe. Now I'll tell you. Thats alot. Alot alot alot. Why did I begin my descent into this hell? Let me think. I like to blame FM for the song Fetish, but its always been more.
I love my personal appearance, I care alot about how I look, sometimes for others opinion, sometimes just for myself. And among fashionable people in highschool, its like theres this unspoken race for which kid with minimal paying jobs is the freshest. I like to think I'm winning with the Asians, and somewhere near 3rd or 4th among the school.... But I feel that as you get older its less about competition and more about appreciation.
So that is the first thing I'm going to miss. The excitement of the pickup, and the anticipation of shittin on everyone. Because I feel that when I get to college, school wont be where i showoff. It'll be more outside. And by that time I'll be so focused on school, any cops will just be for me personally. Thats not to say I've never copped anything even though I didnt really like it. But lets face it. Two black Supras? The Black tuf Skytops and Black Suede Vaiders? Thats slightly repetitive. But in essence, I feel like everything I cop will be alot more important and have more quality to me.

Not a very deep reflection, but its a start...

Blogspot update?

So this is goin on my Tumblr even though I'm updating my blogspot, but the school internet blocks Tumblr.... smh

So the bapesta's are shipped out and on their way, just gotta wait for the ice creams son!
FFamily snapback also on the way. Handdrawn shit is where its at. God I love foreign family. Been on em since the beginning. Fresh since 05

Guilt

I feel guilty for not using blogspot.... T.T
But chyea here we go

Plans for the weekend-

-Get really freakin good at COD4
-Study for AP gov exam monday
-Order my shizuoku bapestas
-Dance (been a week)
-Order the JBWKZ crooks and castles tee

Nice right?

Moving

Moving to Tumblr mainly cuz alot of my favorite people use that. Ie Movement Lifestyle.

Still gunna keep up with some people here, but yea

Planss

Heres my plan for workin out and eatin healthy

Mondays: Dance

Tuedays: run

Wendsdays: Dance

Thursdays: Run

Friday: Dance

Saturday and Sunday: Dance

Sunday night: run


I'm gunnna try and run and get a little exercise in the morning to boost my metabolism so im a lil more energized during the day. Also need to get enough sleep, so I'mma try and sleep at 11.

ALSO

Gotta eat healthier. Gunna try and eat just salads with one lil thing of dressing, and for fuck sake, no chips. I hate that i'm such a glutton, but i need to get off chips. Ugh.

Aite, thats it for now.... Today was blackout day, so I'm in my all black funeral look (Ben Baller lol) So black vneck, black se7en dress pants, black tuf supras, black gshock, my black glasses. Above and beyond son. Tomorrow is kindergarden day. Dont know how tahts going to work out, but i'll try. Gotta think of some ideas.

Meetin new people, girls ofcourse, but ionno. Not in the mood for anything. Maybe have a little fun, meet people, but nothing serious. I dont ahve the time, energy, or (for once) motivation. After Christina, Anny, and recently Hara, I think I'm done with the needy relationships for awhile. I'm off that shit. Whee.

Gotta keep drinkin water to fill up my appetite.

Hm, guess thats it for now. Cant wait for Tim and Chris to get back from college, cuz I'm in serious need of some people train with. Now, if I've never mentioned Tim, hes basically one of the few bboys I respect. This man is musicality, musicality, musicality. He appreciates what it means to be funky. You see the powerheads, flips and shit, then you see Tim, with the freshest toprocks and sweet footwork, and when the mood strikes him, the swag. Thats wassup. And Chris, my big sister for life, obviously. Lol. I love how i just mentioned her before, and now i mention her again, in a completely different light. Anyways, hopefully get them, then Monia, and who knows.

I wanna get a big jam session somewhere, just get a buncha dancers together. Chris, Tim, Song Li, Azya, Monia, maybe even Cherry and see if she can bring some people from the old studio. Butchyea, MAYBE EVEN ASH. lol who knows. Summertime is almost here. Cant wait for china either

Damn this post was not meant to be this long

pCe

The weekend

Hm....

Friday chilled with Peter Yanggg. Played some Halo 3

Saturday- Went to Chuckie Cheese with Peter and his lil sis. Thank you Lauren for the employee discount. Funny story. Theres like a big wheel thing that spins, its like 5 ft diameter. Anyways, the bonus is 250 tickets. I tried 10 times, didnt get it. Peter tries once, gets it. We were like, wtf..... Went back to his house, got some micky d, watched the first harry potter, then played so random Xbox360 arcade games.

Sunday, woke up, exercised a lil, went to Monia's to chill, dance, met some people, cool people. Then went to go see Taming of the Shrew with Sean, shit blew my ears off. Hate loud people, which is ironic, cuz when im excited, im really freakin loud. Anyways, school is almost over. So yea.

Time to seriously diet and exercise. Time to exercise that willpower. Phew

pCe

Bday wishlist?

I'm just doin this so that i remember what i want...

Anything Bape- You know me sz 11-12, large

Supra Skytop II black and gold- Those release this weekend, but i really want em, ive been holdin out on skytop II's to wait for somethin like this. Clean, sexy. Sz 11-12

Meister watches- I love my gshock, but i need some grown man steez shit for college, and meister is just the watch.

Be@rbrick- gotta get on that

Underwear- Can never get enough boxers...

Toys in general- Anything cool, novelty, or just plain sweet. Yep



Those are in order of want level. So yea. I'll wait to pass these out to my friends, see if anyone wants to volunteer to chip in for anything. Or i'll probably just ask for money donations.

Btw

Nothing :P

pCe

Breaktime

Takin a break from studies and stuff to just write a little bit bout the mental shit ive been goin through these past few weeks.
With college coming just around the corner, I see my future looming ahead. What do I want my life to be like? I see these people, rockin that nice shit, livin in a nice apartment, drivin a decent car. I wanna live like that. Not too heavy, but just lightweight, good friends, good times. But how does one go about that? I was listenin to I Need a Dollar by Dumbfoundead, and i realized somethin. I've got my work cutout. I've thought so much about the good life, i forgot that it takes work. I forgot that i need to put in effort. Not only that, I forgot that after awhile, i need to take care of my parents. I might even have a family, i'll need to take care of them. So then in the end its not just my good life, its about makin sure my future family has a good life too. And that kind of makes me regret my highschool years. These 4 years have just been a blur of impulsive decisions and bad judgement. I can safely say that i truly regret my highschool career, and if i had a chance, id redo it all. But whats past is past, and i just need to catch up now. Theres so much more i want to say, but for now.... well. I'll figure it out as they come.

pCe

Lets see if i can get away with writing everyday

So I should be doin work, but I'm on here. Guess i need to vent

So since Bape has been my freakin life lately, I'm gunna try and make some extra cash from my dad mowin the lawn, front and back, 20 dollars each time. I need in total atleast 195, and with 150 next month, i need about 45. Thats just for the shit i wanna cop. We're not talkin regular expense: gas, food, etc. So yea. My goal is to be rockin real international shit when i get on that plane to Detroit, then Tokyo, then Beijing. And i want a beef bowl in the Tokyo airport. I've been cravin Japanese food ever since FM did a FM eating in Japan. Which is funny, cuz today is rockstar/concert day for powderpuff week at school, and I just so happen to be wearing my red fm tee. (with the jordans. Fetishhhh). Uhm what else
Anyways, I think my dad knows my work ethic now when i want something. I offered to work all day on weekends for 60 dollars. Shiet. Niggah id work all day of the week for 60 dollars. I need a dollar, dollar is what i need (dumbfoundead)

Finally got around to really listening to all my Nujabes. I've had his shit for awhile now, a few years, but his death and Samurai Champloo gave me a little bit of inspiration and motivation to listen to his stuff, and yea. Theres a few artists that I literally like all their shit. David Tao, Shinhwa, and now the list has added Nujabes. This fusion of jazz, funk, hip hop, is just amazing. Its tranquil, yet it moves you. Nujabes, rest in peace. My favorite producer of all time, yes he beats out Pharell. Pharell may be best dressed, but Nujabes is just the best.

Why do I try so hard to look good? Is it cuz i like other people thinkin i look good, or just like lookin good cuz it makes me feel good. The latter. I dont think i care too much what others think of me, but you how girls dress up their dolls? Yea thats me. I just like to look good cuz its fun and its awesome. Plus fashion is something everyone can appreciate, especially me.

Summer. I'm leavin May 19th and coming back June 30th. Gunna get some shopping done there, gunna see family, maybe travel a little, hang out with old friends, eat good foods, and just enjoy my last summer as a higschool student, and my first summer as a college student. Transitionary period if you will. Ionno what the future may hold. New girl, maybe. New hobbies, maybe. New me, yes maybe. You never know.

Last few words, I hate lazy people, and i hate blankenship.

pCe

Busy busy

Busy in my mind per say. School is alright, catchin up with stuff. But my college stuff is killin me, so with these two combinations, i probably wont write for a few days. Just know that I'm catchin up with school and college. Gsu, here i come!

pCe

Apologies

I learn

As you grow up you learn. I'm not in a position to be a guru on life, but all i can say is that as you grow, you learn. Good or bad, you learn. Today I learned. We both did. I'm sorry. Maybe in another setting, another time. But just not now.

pCe

Oh man, SBX

Spring Break 2010 of my senior year. A little uneventful, but i didnt wanna do much. I just wanted to get focused for summer and gstate.

Friday- Oldschool gaming with Peter Yangg, then chilled with my little brother Abdallah, got some Chinese, played WoW, stayed up late, like the old days. Went with his older brother Aladin to Circle K. Its funny, in the oddest of places you find words of wisdom. The dude workin there knew Aladin's cousin, and we chopped it up for a little bit. That dude had such insight. Thanks man.

Saturday- Played bball with Abdallah's fat ass... Smh... Went home chilled.....

Sunday and Monday- Chilled

Tuesday- Picked up the miss from Ringgold, thats 3 hours roundtrip. We went to Hmart, chilled, played ssb, blazed, ended the night.

Wendsday- had to take her home... smh

Thursday- Woke up early for a dermatology appointment. Then headed home, caught a few z's, then went to GSU for a tour. I'm not gunna get into details, all i can say is that I'm gunna enjoy college life, and i wanna do well in terms of grades for once. Got home, chilled out, then went to Peter Yangg's house for oldschool gaming with JJ, Lauren, Mimi, and Peter Yangg of course. Got our grub at Moes and went to Chucky Cheese. Saw some old dude there on one of the two player shooting games, and hes dual wieldin the pistols like fuckin Neo. smh.... Hit up Yogli Mogli, bomb frozen yogurt place. Then back to Peter's, went home around 11, chilled, went to bed

Friday and Saturday- Sick,,

Sunday- Danced for like the second time the entire break. Smfh......

So yea my dad left this mornin for H-town, see him in a week. Its just me and mumm.... How are we gunna eat T.T

When i say chilled i mean played Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic. Its basically intergalactic Jade Empire, which makes sense since its Bioware.

New music discoverys! Dumbfoundead....

Yea hopefully the last 6 months are good, and i pass all my fuckin classes and enjoy the summer.

Supposed to have a session today at my house, hopefully it all goes down, cuz if history tells us anything, its that Azya sucks nuts at planning and keeping promises. Smh....

pCe

i used smh about 6 times... SMH

pCe

April Fools

This post will not contain april fools jokes of any kind. Mainly cuz to me, any day is good enough for an april fools joke...

Seriously

Offset printing soon, this oughta be interesting....

Spring break is almost here. I guess this spring break I'll just be relaxing at home, eating good, dancing, what not.

Tupac was not a rapper. He was a prophet.

Some mixed feelings going around. I'm still tryna understand them. When the time comes, I'll talk about it. But for now, I just wanna keep thinking...

Nothin to do this weekend or next week for a few days. Might just play some WoW, and train, maybe monia. See what shes up to. Hopefully Azya and Songli get a chance and we can session. Yea

I really want some fuckin pizza. And orange chicken. I've been craving orange chicken so badly.

Georgia State is almost here. The real GSU. I'll embrace it no matter what.

pCe

fuck me...

Aite, so i definitely should be finishing up this econ project, but fuck it, i feel a random urge to blog for no reason.

Some stuff happened yesterday, my dad bein my dad. Yea. I love you Haha, so dont worry

This last week is gunna be some major bullshit. But i feel like since its the week before spring break, i should put in the effort and see it as a challenge. Thats called me bein mature. Lookin for challenges like this. Diggin it.

So apparantly, in Ringgold, I'm considered to have swag. To me its not swag, its steez. I got my own steez, and whatever anyone considers swag, good for them. But this just me bein me. So yea. Maybe I'm just awesome.

Anywayssss, need to start this econ shit. Hopefully i work hard this week, get my dad off my back, and then I can have an enjoyable spring break.

1 week til...

Spring Break! Not that I ever do anything or ever want to.

Got paint on my lrg v neck. Hella pissed.

Really happy mood = always hungry.

I'm just ecstatic. Man thats the only fuckin word i can use to describe it. I love affection, but this time its not love for affection but love for her. Its just like. Damn. Maybe I'm young, but its one of the few times i can see the future.

Not much to say. Just kinda really fucking happy with life right now, hope this shit keeps up for a bit.

Hopefully this week will be a breeze so taht I can enjoy spring break.

And yea, I'm considering talking to James.

pCe

:)

March 27th. I dont think I really need to talk about what went down, because I know I'll always remember what happened. Like I said before, this blog is for me. I write to keep memories that i can one day read. This memory. This day.... I dont think i need anything to remember it.

But there are some funny things id like to remember

Somethings that I'll always cherish:

Seeing her for the first time
Alabaster is not a name
Vortex's to the Florida end of I-75
And that :)

Cant wait to see her again.

Yo

My Tufs are getting murdered. I need an extra pair. One for daily, one for dance. And no, I will not wear the vaider black suedes.

2 days

Rain comeback april 1, hyori april 2. Lets see whos is better. I'm vying for Hyori. Its been so long since shes done somethin, I'm sure shes got lots of tricks up her sleeves.

Gettin my haircut today... T.T This is going to SUCK. Not really. Its summer, gotta get my summer buzz on. Might even be a punk and get some racing stripes.

Anyways, yea Saturday is gunna be amazing. I'm ready. One more day, and its gunna be a long one. Got shit for Stat, got an econ ppt i gotta finish, gotta finish analyzing candide. But its all worth it.

Make ya self, dont break ya self. FM

pCe

Counting down days

Still counting down the days.

Update: I am off again. Gasp.

I really want a pair of raw selvedge. Japanese. PBJ...

Nothin much to say. Camera cable came in, so hopefully taking more pictures as time goes along, or maybe not at all. Why did I even get a camera to begin with?
Finally decided to bust out my old huck gee kidrobot collab tee, the pink dunny one. Shit is fresh, but a lil small on me.

Saw some kid withn Yeezys at school. And they are in fact real. If theres one thing I can a appreciate, its classy fellow in a sea of punks. Kids need to get off that 60 dollar nike dunk bullshit. Its quality over quantity. Nobody cares how many pairs of dunks you got, if they general release, then you're a bitch nigga. I've seen this kid around, hes got class. North face limited release backpack, rockin fresh shit everyday. cement grey jordan 3's, space james, yeezy tans, yep this kid is someone i respect. Not to mention hes an amazing basketball player. Ryan Harrow, walton high. Look that shit up. 5'11 that has mad ups and handles. May need time to mature, but he's got the raw talent and basic skills.

Anyways... I'm still here with kidrobot, supra all day, everyday, true religion jeans and gshock. Step up kids.

Imma go before i start soundin like a real bitch, so yea

Counting down the days... Not counting today, thats 3 days. I love you, ja gi ^^.
Learn asian motha fuckas.

Aite til next time
"KYAH!!!!!..... BITCH!" look at me quotin Boondocks.

pCe

Talking

Talkin to my special girl....
Schools doin alright, I'm startin to get a grip, especially with anticipation of this Saturday, goin up to Ringgold which is near the Tennessee border to see her.

These past few days have just been a blur. I've just been so fun. I'm not one to be caught up with girls, maybe for the exception of Chris noona, but damn. This girl is really the one. Hopefully. how old am I? ><

So forgive me if i dont write as much, cuz basically everyday will be: Today i talked to Hara. The end.

pCe

RIP Nujabes

Just gunna start off and say RIP Nujabes. The man recently passed away. So yea. Inspiration to hip hop fans all over the world, especially me. Being one of the main producers for the music for Samurai Champloo, you had a giant influence on me. Japanese hip hop has always been a big inspiration for dance for me. So yea.

Anyways....

No more drama for your mama

lol....

Fit today:
White vneck
Lavender colored hoodie from heritage
Mighty Healthy denim
Black tuf skytop

DAily life right?

Hopefully i can get some shoe goo today at either target or the shoe store. If a shoe store doesnt have shoe goo i swear to God I'm gunna kill somebody.

Btw the reason I dont talk about the girl here, i just dont think i need to write about it because I'm always gunna remember this shit. But just one note. She makes me so damn happy.

Btw, (finally) listening to Drunken Tigers "Feel Ghood Muzik" album. Like seriously listenin to it. Its awesome.

Btw... Team RSOSA.... Just an idea.

And yep, one more week!

pCe

Hehe

Nana na na nana na, im gunna start a fight

Lol. I dont even know why i got that stuck in my head. Must be the Daywalker vs Bang Jenkins video (peep on youtube), Landizee is sick no matter what.

Anyways, imma keep goin before i really start dickridin.... Whats new....

Mighty Healthy Leanord Slim Fit are my new favorite jeans, that is until someone buys me a pair of pbj, nudie, or evisu. But yea, I'm clownin on these punks at school. Note to every lil fobby asian kid: I know what Fape is. Dont make me call you out. And also, having a pair of 80 dollar hi top nike dunks that are general release is nothin to it. You show me a pair of limited releases or somethin other than the swoosh, maybe I'll give you credit. Man. Theres one black kid though, he copped the black on black croc nike dunk, and shit is clean. I can dig anyone that does the funeral look. So yea props to that kid. But back to fobba asian kids. Havin three pairs of nike dunks doesnt make you a sneakerhead or a fashionista. And Fape is a definite no-no. So you kids need to watch and learn. As a wise man once said: "Yo colors too bright, yo jeans are too tight." There you go. Aint nothin wrong with slim fit. But when u cant wear boxers with em anymore, or New Boyz is callin u up, then theres a problem :D

..... Hara..... Which is ironic because Goo Hara is one of my favorite Kara members, after Nicole (drool). Yi Hara. (YI HA!) LOL... Man. I dont wanna make any assumptions, but yea, i can see myself in ten years, her buggin me because i bought a new pair of shoes. I love that girl. Yea. I really do. I dunno what fate has in store, but I know that if it were up to me, we'd be together forever. Yea thats a bit immature for me to say, and unrealistic, but a man can dream cant he? Yes he can

You know you a fly asian when u got multiple black people in a really suburban white town complimenting your fit. Too bad they aint on the Supra game yet. Step it up.

And btw, yo nigga is almost back to 175. After that the goal is to get back to my original weight of 165. And maybe start workin out. MAYYYBE. But probably not.

My wifey is dance, my mistress is Hara. I think thats how its gunna work out. Or if we do this polygamy, my two wifeys are dance and Hara, and my concubine is fashion :X

Btw, Far*East Movement, FMonyourdial, they goin on tour in Japan with the one and only, Lady Gaga! Bit props to them for all these years. If ya'll dont know who they are, they are basically the new big thing in the pop/ hip hop scene. I've been with them since day one, and day one i dont mean Folk Music, I mean Audio Bio, Food Fight ft Jin. They doin big shit after Animal dropped an Girls on the Dance Floor got major airtime around the country, but i cant say I'm a little disappointed that they movin away from the Cali roots. They more into the whole pop scene, with their new album set to drop soon from Cherrytree Records (LMFAO, Lady Gaga, Space Cowboy). They're old music (Folk Music) was by far one of my favorite albums. Top 10 rap albums. Mainly cuz they asian, and they breakin barriers. But hip hop is colorless, and Folk Music told struggles of us first Generation asian kids who are tryna make it big in somethin thats not traditional. They spoke to me. All the asian american people who doin that nonconventional shit, Ben Baller, WongFu, Quest Crew, David Choi, FM, you guys are big inspirations. God bless.

I dont think I've ever said God bless. They say that you not only should ask God for help in troubled times, but thank God for the good times. Why am I only thanking him? I dont know...

Aite. this was a long ass post. I'm just rambling.

pCe

Lazy Tuesdays....

So this week sucks except for just a few things ^^ Late nights...
Gunna go up there next saturday.... ^^

Its a bullshit week with a load of work, but something just keep me goin... or keep me distracted....

Whats new.....

Jay Park got a youtube account... Taeyang is awesome. Nas and Yeezy are my favorite rappers right now. What else....

I need to get shoe goo, my tufs are worn out as fuck...

Why do i post randomly when i got nothin to say?

Raw denim coming in tomorrow, dunno when my camera cable is coming

Why do i post when i got nothin to say?????

pCe


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btw, Its Basswalker, Megatron if you nasty

I feel like such a sappy little kid. I havent felt this way in a long time. I've never just stared at a person like this. I think its love. Foreal. I mean, just lookin at her just makes me smile. And I've never met her before. Is that bad? Is this destiny or something? Maybe.

Fun ass weekend

Awesome weekend. Best in a long time

Saturday, went to lunch at Panera with Rachel, Malvika, Jimmy, Star, Christy, and Christina. Basically a portion of the old group. Fun time, we went to borders, wandered around, and I went home early and chatted with Hara (^^) for a little bit. Shes so intruiging, she can do sign language! Her friend is deaf, so basically we typed, and ionno. Somethin about that is so damn appealing. Anyways, Christy and Christina came later, and we chilled, chatted with Hara, goofed off, waiting for Ryan to come over. Ryan got here, and we went to my garage to session. The did jack shit, so i just got my groove on and practiced. Then I was like fuck, you guys need to do something. So I got a cypher goin, Ryan just doin whatever, Christina bein boring. So I'm like i need to up the ante. I decide to start clownin, get in there face. Since they both breakers, I toprock, clownin them, gettin them mad. Got them both kinda hyped. For a girl, and for the time shes been breaking shes not that bad. So yea. Sunday, oovoo'd, danced, dinner. It doesnt seem like that great of a weekend, but its just been awhile since I've had the company of others like this, since i usually dont like to go out. So this was a change of scene, and i gotta say, ive missed these guys alot. Thank you

Yep another school week. fuck....

pCe

Grind...?

Stay on the grind...?

No, just a lil punk tryna make some money for the swag. I have been so into Bape lately, and if anyone knows anythin about the shoe game, yea.

And if you dont know, IT MAKES SUPRAS LOOK LIKE TRASH. Atleast the price. So yep, I've decided that tomorrow before I session with Christina noona, and Christy, Imma go on a first part install job-hunt. Man. This is one of those times when i wish i had mentorship or you know like some older friend to help. But now, asian teenagers are all bums, and our parents buy everything for us. YEA. I SAID IT. AND ITS TRUE. I feel like asian kids like me dunno what its like to be on the grind. I got some experience hustlin, you know just doin what i can to buy all my shit. But in the end, its petty cash. I need a solid job. Sometimes bein on the grind just aint the safest way to live. I guess thats the predicament when it comes to bein a dancer, there isnt a sure guarantee unless you foreal got like a solid teaching job. Thats called grind. And someday, i hope to live that kind of lifestyle. But for now, Imma let my parents take care of my livin, and imma just get money to keep up my spendin habits, which are seriously ruinin my goddamn life.

Ohhhh, and ionno if i already wrote about this, but imma say it again. Damn....
I feel like shes the kind of girl I've always looked for. Confident, but humble. Passionate, but rational. How long have i known her? 2 days motha fucka. But still, ionno. Ive never met an asian girl this passionate about dance. Maybe more passionate than me. I feel like she jjust so real u know? And its like, I'm giving this so much hope just cause I've never thought it possible. Maybe thats just me being hopeful. Am I askin too much? Is asking for the perfect girl just asking a little too much?....

But yea. Again. I NEED MONEY. "Oh shit that I need money." "He no talk, how come he" "I need money, hes a mute." Thats the second time today I've quoted How High. The other was bufu. "Buy us, fuck you!" Love that shit. Method Man and Redman.

Uhm what else. Oh yea. TODAY. lol.... Well basically Chris noona came to visit, so i escorted her around the school, went to visit Mr. Adams, then went to go see Camp. Went to the mall, got a new sweater (T.T smh), and yea. I WANT BAPESTAS, BAPESTAS, BAPESTAS. Fuck, christmas is already over. Damn that. Sayuka was there, havent seen her in ages, my boy Ryan. Hope he goes to the session tomorrow, it be dope to see him and Chris go at it, too bad I make em both look like PUNKS! haaaa but seriously id dominate them.

Man I've just realized, this blog is probably not meant for anybody to read. Cuz seriously if anyone ever read this shit... T.T I'm lucky i never have labels or tags. And that I'm not really the worlds most popular person :P, butchyea..... i just quoted Ashleyy jie there. butchyea.

Aite, wish me luck on the job hunt. shit....

Pce

I might be in love

I think I might have just fallen in love. I dont know what the girl looks like, I think she lives somewhere near the Tenessee border, and something about her dancing and the way she treats it is just intruiging.

And lucky me, my big sis Chris's boyfriend is friends with her. I dont understand fate or destiny, but damn.

I dont know how to explain it. I saw her descriptions on youtube, and i feel like she takes dancing the way I do, you know? Like, its not just a hobby, its a lifestyle. She dances sexy, but then its like bam out of no where, some footwork reminiscent of me. She moves with conviction, here and there knows how to shake it, and then back to the music. Damn. I'm gunna contact her via youtube, and I dont know what I'm gunna say. Cuz its like, at this point, I'd be happy just to session with her. And the funny thing is, before i saw her video i was just thinkin about how i wanted to marry an asian girl who danced, and had the same passion for dancing as i do. And then i found her. Ionno, I just couldnt believe it. I didnt know a girl like that existed. Maybe thats why I'm so obssessed with her right now. Because I want to know that girls like that exist. I think I'm just gunna tell her what i saw, and that I'm really impressed and amazed, and that I wanna session with her. Ionno. I dont wanna be all akward and shit, but I feel like if there was anything called fate, this is it. What are the motherfuckin odds. You dont find asian girls who dance around here as seriously as I do. They may say they do, but they just frontin to look cool, ya know? But shes different. Through her movements, I see the energy, the passion, the dedication. I need to meet her. I need to.

You got me runnin runnin runnin awayyyyyy

Yes, new Epik High album has dropped!
http://www.mediafire.com/?4xynhtnmufy
to download, but if you're a good person, then you will go find them on itunes, and buy their albums

Favorite songs, Wordkill, Over, and Run. Epik High, even without DJ Tukutz, released an awesome album. Allkpop is calling it a "dark" album. Silly bitches. This is real rap, real hip hop. They dont need to be classified under your pop generalizations. They are experimenting. TYVM

This week has been kinda boring, ordered some new earrings online, and hopefully they come today

School has been buggin me. I cant take Blankenship and Campagna. Campagna maybe, but Blakenship is just a dick. The other day, he actually had the gall to tell me to stop draggin my feet along the ground, cuz its bad for posture. Smh. That dude walks like he has polio, back all bent lookin like hes about to fall forward. Man, fuck him...

Anyways, dance has become alot more fun these few days. Experimenting around. Just freestyling foreal

Yea... Supra tufs are the shit, literally water proof. But i dont get the difference between water resistant and water proof, cuz the Gunnys are water resistant, i dont get that. Anyways, I'll post later this week.

Pce

Say whats real

Everyday I'm gettin worse,no doubt
that years of fakenes and hateness are payin off
This is what i wanted, i wanted to have clout
To blow the steam and work off landos top
I became a carbon copy of what i saw as the best
I didnt think to seperate myself from the rest
Instead i jsut created a whole other mess
I heap of somethin that aint me, sincerely
Id give those days back if i could just have a chance to be that
one who improvised, devised a plan to be someone
Another guy that people would hate on
But now look at this.Everyday its gets worse
And training isnt an option, because the ugly truth hurts
It hurts deep inside to know that I'm not what i want
And before i get to stuttered up to speak.
I'm just gunna say this one time, and be at peace
I'm a dancer first, a person on the side
I define myself trough my dance, so no lie
One move after another, thats not how to live
You need to dance with yourself, and thats it.


I need to move with myself. I cant keep copying what i see. I miss my roots. I miss what i was. I miss being somethin that i am, rather than somethin that i see.

Training...?

So the other day i was talkin with monia online, and I came accross a realization
I've never been much for a connection with the music rather than musicality. In terms of rhythm. I guess its because I started off popping. Much of what i do is based around the freedom of freestyle dance. I prefer freestyle over choreography. I find it challenging, I find that it trains not only my body but my mind. But then theres the thing.
I feel like maybe i take dance too seriously. Monia was talking about how its for fun, i should take it easy. I then thought about how dance and freestyle to me is a lifestyle. Its a philosophy. She jokingly told me how i was like a ballerina, and how they are always hard on themselves about training and perfection. I've never thought myself to be a perfectionist, far be it. Maybe a little ocd, but never perfection. But I've realized. I am a perfectionist when it comes to my dancing. I analyze it the way a scientist analyzes an enzyme. I feel this allows me to appreciate many dancers more. The down side of this is that I'm never pleased with what I do. I feel like that negativity makes me worse. I honestly dont know how to solve this. Its like one giant vicious circle.
Whatever the solution, I've realized that when I say I'm gunna go dance, that means I'm going to go train. Train my self as close to perfection as I can. Which to me is Keibee.... His dance philosophy is like the holy grail key to unlocking the true potential of any freestyle dancer. All I can say is flow. I cant really point specifically, and I dont know how to apply it.

Speakinn of which, JBWKZ coming to Georgia Southern University in statesboro in april, hopefully my friend will remember to buy me tickets on monday. I'm gunna go with Monia ^^ Its gunna be kick ass

Another rant, hopefully nobody reads this part... Damn fuckin kids these days.
Take the most innocent girl you know, virgin skin, pretty eyes, beautiful face, and yes nice body. Now all of a sudden she gettin fucked on the regular by some scum bitch ass nigga (excuse my language). This punk... I dunno. I feel bad for Azya, and for Stephanie. But ya'll hold tight. She'll come around. If I was religious, I'd pray. All I can do is wish you guys luck.

Anyways, 2 new shoes this week! Supra skytop black tuf and OG Supra Skytop green camos. Fiyaaa... And ordered my first pair of raw denim jeans. Gunna be hot when i get em. Gunna have to wear some gay shoes so i dont bleed on em. fuck.

pCe out, have a great weekend!

Its only been a day

Its only been one day, but i feel like its been so long. So much is happening, yet so little. I guess most of it is just personal thoughts. Just I'm always thinkin, but I never writing anything down. Bad bad bad

Anyways, my black skytop tufs came in. I think I've given up on pics, atleast until i get a cable for my camera.

Goals for this week
- Order the cable
- Fill out GSU stuff
- Buy a atleast 1 pair of new jeans, atleast one Cheap Mondays.
- Do all my school assignments
- Write on this blog foreals atleast once

I'm sorta coming together with my wardrobe for college. Gotta keep flossin. Yup. Supra all day. And whatever u know, keep it real, keep it simple.
I'm lookin forward to GSU.


I'm proud that I've kept up this blog. You know, I dont care that nobody reads. Thats not the point for this. I wanna look at this someday in the future and see how much I've changed, how much my life has changed. And what a great point to start. I started basically after i ended stuff with Christina, and its a great transitional period in my life. But yea. Proud of myself. Lets just hope Blogspot doesnt disappear one day, imma be fuckin pissed.

Anyways, pce

Update 3/2

So I dont think I've ever gone this long without writing.

So I'm definitely goin to State, but its been a lil shaky. I wanna livin in an aparmtnet my first year, but my parents want dorms. And thers no arguing with them. I dunno. Im gunna listen to em this time. We got in a pretty big arguement last night over it, and if u know me, Ive got a quick temper. So i feel bad everytime i get in a fight with my parents.
They are disappointed in me, i know it.

If my parents ever see this, or in the future. I'm sorry Mom and Dad.

New shoes comin today! Supra skytop black tuf
andddd
I ordered some skytop green camo ogs! Heck yea!

Hmmm the flow?

So since the beginnin of this week i been out of commission, ie no practice. fucking sucks. Lost the flow alot, but i think i'll get it back little by little. Damn and i got work.

I hate Blakenship. Bald ass fucker needs to know his place, cuz he definitely aint my fuckin mom. Callin me out cuz i yawned, callin me out cuz i like to have good breath and chew a piece of gum. You bitch fuck, next time u tell me to fucking take the gum out of my mouth im stickin that shit onto your desk. Teachin me about responsibility, teachin me about success in life. Naw dont try

Maybe i dont know what success is. Maybe im bein to harsh. All i know is that im out of this fuckin dump excuse for a school. Outta cobb county, where half the people are out of touch of the world. Some little punk kids go to africa and help out, think they've suddenly experienced a harsh life. Naw, u got fed 3 times a day in africa, and you got a comfy bed, and malaria pills. That aint a hard life. Thats the life most of the people live for. If you got spare time to go to others and help them, then u aint livin a hard life. I'm not sayin i have, but atleast i know that. I hate cobb county.

Whatever.

Award for most cheeeese. Yeezy lol

pCe

Guess what?

I just made Georgia State!!!! Wheee!!! Which means im goin there!!!

Remind you of someone?

Ace....

Lol

Anyways, yea its gunna be the bomb dizzle, think I'm goin out to celebrate today, might see if i can convince my parents to cop me somethin as a gift :X

Anyways yea, more updates later.

Best anime series ever

Samurai Champloo

word

"Some live, some die in the way of the samurai.

What a big influence for me.

Its just perfect. It really is.

Skytops for vaiders

I think I might sell my vaiders to get a pair of skytop black tuf. I need shoes to dance in, and vaiders arent cuttin it out for me. Maybe one day, I'll be able to afford shoes like a silly little bitch, but for now...

Shoe rant

I feel like alot of the shoe game has now become mad hype and retro-ing (ie nike). I feel like if they already released a shoe, buildin on that hype and restocking shit like copper's makes it really lame, cuz nowadays i see it like, everyone has a pair of shoes that was in some way a limited release. But as you go up the scale, all of a sudden we're lookin at the big sneakerheads. Its annoying.

And some of the shoes, especially air max 360's, maybe im not just not big enough of a sneakerhead to appreciate it, but its an ugly ass shoe, especially if u try and get it with an outfit. Sure i can appreciate shoes like kobe's cuz they made for bball, and jordans, man they just have extremely classic designs. But shit like the copper foams are just trash. Its a really ugly color. Sure i appreciate them for what they are, and thats basketball shoes, but as shit to rock on the street i think id feel kind of stupid. My dad used to say shoes are just shoes. Theres a right shoe for every moment.

And thats why i love Supra. Each shoe not only combines the ability to be worn in sports and for me dancing, but its somethin id definitely rock in a club. Supra combines wearability, looks, comfort, versatility, all into one package. Take the skytop black tuf, its the tuf material, great ankle support, i can wear it for dancing. Suprafoam is the greatest thing ever. But then again, i can wear that shit on the streets at night, and get compliments for it. Supra is really just on another level. Each shoe in itself is great.

Yea.

PcE

Money is the issue

So yep, its begun. I'm gunna start hockin shit for shoes. Namely supras. Sellin my Nike CL Dunk Denims for around 90 since they arent ds, buts till clean
Gunna sell some old brand new chucks black and yellow for maybe lik 40, not really what anyones lookin for, but whatever. And sellin either my ipod or my zune, since i have both.

shoes I want
Military Green Skytop Tuf
Purple Tie Dye skytop

Some odd colorways that not too many people like, but i find a bit of appeal in no one having em. I could get burg skytops, but everyone has those... T.T I need the military green's for dancing, the tuf is gunna be a life saver for all my other shoes....

i hate bein poor. Damn

Plan for today:
See if i got anyone interested in buying, check up on Cherry to see if she got my money
Finish work
Dance
Samurai Champloo

Thats right bitches. Samurai Champloo

PCe

Update 2/21

Not been in a blogging mood lately, been sort of relaxing and thinkin.

So heres the update

Shoes- Skytop 2's are out of the picture, i really want a pair of tufs, cuz i could use em badly for dancing, my suedes cant handle the wear and tear anymore. White tuf looks really ugly especially against my gluestick colored legs.... So I've settled on military green skytop tufs. Too bad fuckin Wei still hasnt paid me. I feel like the past couple of weeks ive been chasing down people for crap that they owe me.... smh.

What else....

Sessioned with Cherry today, omgawd the weather was so good, and i didnt have a cig in hand to break in the new weather. So tomorrow imma skip the first 2 periods to finish and essay and buy some smokes. Yea its bad, but sometimes i just need some relaxin. I dont want it to become a habit again. I never really get addicted, it just feels good to have somethin to suck on no homo

But yea weather was amazing, so that 40 minute drive became me bumpin to two of my favorite summer songs. Fly by Sugar Ray, and Beautiful Day by FM. Talk about opposites. 10 year difference between the release of these two tracks, FM came about in my time, but Sugar Ray? Damn man i was just a kid, about 5 years old when Fly came around. I love how my musical taste can span this far. Anyways, session was good, Cherry is growin as a dancer, if anything at all shes picking up on some attitude which is what i stress alot. Monia couldnt make it, so we're definitely gunna have to make up for that. And Wei didnt give me money, so i hate him and Chen for that. Stupid asses. Ugh, i really wanted to order my shoes tomorrow... FUCK.

Anyways, yea nothin much, schools lazy, everythigns lazy.... yea

Pce

So many ideas

So many ideas.

School of Ultimate Dancers

Just a thought. Dancing is a little off, which means im gaining weight.

Supra Skytop 2 White tuf dropped today, gunna cop mine in a few weeks....

Got my shit back from James, fuck him no homo

What else. Gaining weight. not good....

Dont wanna talk yet....

I dont wanna talk about dance right now. I've been sorta just experimenting and im not ready to present any findings....

Today we gettin off early, 1 hour actually cuz of winter weather warnings. Wdf? And LA thought it was weird to get tornado warnings....

Goin to perimeter with monia to buy jenn's bday present. Party tomorrow..... Am I lookin forward to it? Sorta....

Ionno what this means to me right now, but I know someday it will
"The motivation for me, is them tellin me what i could not be. o well"

I think someday I'll know what that means. I think I'm a hard worker. Actually I know so. I just havent put it to use to the things that are truly important. I dont wanna be caught up in superficial shit. I've always been one for satisfying my own tastes. I never cater to someone else, and i despise when people try to match my tastes.

Google got buzz... I still dont understand. I think its just twitter.....\


Anyways, I'll see if i can finally upload pics. I'm so lazy.

PCCCE
MT Basswalker out

Frustrated...

I'm extremely frustrated.

My overhaul for my freestyle is not going well. I feel myself slipping into repetitiveness. Because of my ideas of flow, I'm ending up repeating the same moves. I dont understand how to change it. This is going to take mad experimentation and crazy meditation.....

I hate it so much. I've been on such a short fuse because of this. Every little thing annoys me, and I have dedicated the little energy in my body to this, and I'm too tired to do anything else.

The Lab 2/8/10

M.T. Basswalker is no more. Today it was back to the lab for another transformation. This week i will improve my freestyle to a new level. I will jot my notes down. Every session will start with stretching for 20 minutes, followed by music and inspirational videos such as Lando wilkins videos on itunes. Then will begin meditation. All the while i will be jotting down notes on what i meditate to make myself a better freestyler.

Todays notes

Become the music. Let the rhythm control you. As music plays, so does your body move. Don’t not move excesively as the beat does not move.
Each movement is connected to the next. Flow is key. Flow as in each movement logically and naturally connects to the next. Free yourself from conventional moves and easy fill in motions. Allow each movement its own liberty. This does not mean no repeating. It just means that there is no conscious repeating. Let the movements control you. Don’t focus too much on one movement or one body part. Let each body part move as one. Dance is movement of the body, not one specific body part.
The feet move as an extension of the body. The way that feet carry you around in daily life, allow your feet to carry around your movement, and with it give it life. The feet may have their time to shine, but usually they act as enhancers to your movements. Just has your feet keep your life moving, they keep the body dancing.

Simplicity is key. Too many movement clutters the original value of each movement. Each movement has meaning. Each movement is dictated by the rhythm and the beat.

2/8/10

Back again. Another monday. too bad i skipped my first three periods to finish a ppt i should have done last not had i not got back from the performance completely beat.

THE PERFORMANCE
I'm kinda happy about it. First on stage performance. Could have done alot better, but im glad that i know now that i can go through that. Gotta work on facials no homo, and make sure i look up no homo :P Anyways, Imma put it on youtube later, class is about to start.

plans this week- practice more, clean up the routine, make a new routine for monia's class saturday that i'll hopefully help teach. Jenn's bday, gotta hit the mall friday to get her somethin... and maybe session at the studio with cherry and people if we can get it organized. Gotta stay on my A game.
Aquarium tomorrow, kind of excited, been awhile since ive been there.

Been into house lately. Check out "House" by House Rulez, and "Insomnia" by Humming Urban Stereo

but yea shout out to Monia Hicks, and southern poly for the theater, and thanks li qian and her entire choir for allowing us to perform in the show with them. Happy early chinese new years!

Night Before

So its the night before the performance. I'm excited. Probably not as nervous as i should be, but nevertheless kinda nervous. I've never danced on a stage before. So this is something that i'll eventually have to experience. I probably wont feel the fright til i get on stage. But I'll deal with that later.

I've realized im one of those guys thats, ionno sometimes to polite. U know how they tell you nice guys never get girls? Sometimes i find that true. I look back and i feel like i had so many chances, so many girls i had crushes on. But all i ever became was a friend. I wish for once, id meet a girl that because i was a friend, because i understood her, loved me for more than that. Its like with Christina, not only was she the girl i loved, she was the best friend i loved. Damn. She was once in a lifetime, and i blew it. I told her that id never love another girl. I feel like its gunna be true. Even now we have our differences, but i think to myself:"I really fuckin blew it. I really did." If i had the chance right now, id be with her in a heartbeat. Id say yes so damn fast id warp to another dimmension cuz id cause some kinda time barrier shit. But naw. I really wish id meet a nice girl though. And i have no idea where to start. Been so outta the game. I havent been single longer than a month for almost 2 years now. Kinda puts shit in perspective. So many girls right now, id love to just get to know em. But ionno where to start..... Whatever.

My mom told me before that when them time comes, it comes. Its fate. I hope.

PcE

When I got into sneakers

The other day, a friend asked me "When did you gett into sneakers?", because i commented on a facebook post she had of air jordan alpha 1's (which are ruining aj1 for me.....) She lives in LA, moved a few years ago, so its been awhile since we've seen each other. I've changed alot. Especially since freshman year. I've developed a sense of independence and a streak of isolation, that honestly has suited me well. Thats not to say that I dont like a crowd, but its just if im alone, whatever.

But yea, when did i get into sneakers? I'll have to say maybe about a year ago is when i religiously got into sneakers, and just fashion in general.

Top shoes

Supra Skytops- My regular dance shoes
Supra Societies- Fuck Yea
Supra Vaiders- Everyday wear
Puma First round- Classic shoes, just comfy and good lookin
AJ3- elephan print, comfortable, amazing design. My favorite nike shoe... probably


Clothing brands-
Orisue- FTH
LRG
Crooks&Castles
Hanes vnecks


so yea.
Fashion changes with the seasons, but a sense of fashion never does.

Ohhh

"She's Gone" G-Dragon ft Kush

Just wanted to start off with that. Its a good song

Anyways, yea my Societies came in yesterday, and i got my supra white leather skytops, a few days ago. Not as exciting as societies though...

Got the show on Sunday, preparing with Monia every other day, its pretty fun, and I'm excited. Getting the costume stuff together is kind of a pain, but its whatever.

Hmmm really nothin much, just been focusing alot on the show, so I'll figure it all out, then pictures after the show Sunday if i get a chance

pCe

SOCIETIES

So I'm a bit late right? But who cares, i finally got em. I was stuck between the newer colorways or old ones... But i had to get these before they really ran out of my size. so without further ado




With the matching Baby Milo hoodie. Pffffft

I'll update tomorrow at school, goin to bed. PEACE

2/1

My dads coming back on Wendsday morning, so I'm looking forward to seeing him. I havent seen him in like 2 weeks. Miss pops.

Anyways, weekend was alright, makes me kinda wonder who are my actual friends. But yea Ryan came over, danced a lil, Monia came Friday, danced a lil bit. We got our work cut out, got the performance Sunday, its gunna be scary...

Gotta do some costuming shopping/ clothes shopping later this week. Gunna be a badass outfit, think I'm gunna save my societies for that performance. muaahahaha.

Not much to say, hope my dad brings back some of the stuff i asked him to buy.

PCCCCE

1-29....

Hmmm today is gunna be a practice for the show next week. I'm kind of excited, and kinda scared if we can piece this together. Gunna have to do some music editing...

Yep. So I've discovered, that after i choreograph, my freestyle is affected. This is bad because my freestyle is more musical than anything. When i freestyle i dont capture the mood of the song. And the styles are extremely different. My freestyle is more of a barebones hitting beats type thing, with fluid, small motions that make me proud of my freestyle skills. However, my choreography is big movements with a ton of emotion. I've cried while doing one of my own choreographies before.... So like the opposite of my freestyle. So thats why i generally dont like choreographing, because for like the rest of the week my freestyle will be off....

Anyways, shopoverload shipped out my shoes, coming in next wendsday. The irony is that i blamed them too fast. Anyways, they have my respect now. Just make sure u email them before u order anything, just incase they dont got it.

But yea monia comin over for practice, gunna watch the abdc season opener online after a bit, order pizza, yep.

I've been thinkin about the future alot. I'm planning on going to LA over spring break to session and take some classes. Ace ventura (Kallusive Dance Crew, peep game) came to FSA once to do a class, and me and him hit it off pretty well, cuz he understands our situation in terms of bein in Atl, which isnt big on my style of dance, and he told me to email or call him if i ever go out. So I emailed him a few days ago, and he replied like an hour later tellin me that if i email him a few weeks before i go, he'll help me figure some stuff out. So yea, this got me thinkin. Been talkin to my moms about dancin as a career. All I know right now is that its my dream to be a dancer. In a sense I've already reached that goal... okay i wanna be a dancer as my livelihood. Its kind of a gamble. But I've never felt so strongly about somethin in my life. I've never worked so hard for something on my own. Everything in my life that ive been good at was forced on me. Dancing, I've been at it for years, and its just somethin ive always loved. Just havin music on and jammin. Sessioning. Freestyling. Choreographing. Training. Its like, some people who have a sport they like, everytime they got practice, there like fuck... I go practice I'm like, hell yea sucka!

Anyways, yep try to post pics, been a long time.

Stay safe, Enjoy the weekend!

Fuck it

Sometimes, its just better to say fuck it. And just leave it at that. Sometimes, stuff just aint worth your time. Its all love right? Naw, ego gets in the way. Fuck ego. When you brothers, dont be afraid of gettin called out, cuz ure only gunna get called out when u step out of line. Know your rank, but know that your rank is as a brother, and gotta be loyal. I dont know. Last time it was miscommunication. This time, its ego. I'm not going to deal with people who have massive egos. I despise pretentious people, which means that i love humble people. Being humble is the key to succeeding. But in the end, its not my position to tell a brother what they are and are not. I only have my perspective, but regardless thats how i make my decisions. Everytime you walk through my door, i let go all of the shit that i hear about you, all the trash from your past. I judge you by what you do to me. That in itself is already very lenient and very forgiving. But step on that, and its over. You borrow my shit and then act like i gave it to you. If i had shit to give out, id let you keep it so that one day it hits you how badly you've done in your life. But you're only 18, we'll see how far a bloated ego can get you.

Anyways, shopoverload.com.... mixed feelings. But w.e I'm still gettin my black perf societies, accordin to Tyrone, they just gotta confirm shipment for me, hope he emails back today.

What else. Oh yea, I'm in a show on the 7th, next sunday at Georgia Southern. Me and Monia, hopefully.

Yep, thats about it.

Stay safe, pC

Reborn...

M.T. Basswalker is born

Last night I made a resolution on what kind of dancer I want to be. I'm gunna aim for that

Basswalker stands for Bass, as in bass beat, and walker as in walking on the bass effortlessly

M.T. stands for.... MEGATRON

But seriously it means Move tirelessly. But i like megatron better.

Wish me luck.

Hmm Fashion?

Lately, I've been a little out of the fashion loop. Yea I still keep up with shoes and shit, always have, but clothes? Not really. I've been into clean denim lately, get that raw denim goin, but other than that, its basically just a jacket in my closet, and a tee. And the fanciest tee I wear nowadays is my wesc tee. If its not white or black v neck, then I'm gunna go all out and get my grown man steez on. But I still gotta have nice shoes. Thats my point that I always go down with. But my moms gave me some advice. She said have a few nice pieces for when u dress up, and thats it. So yea, I guess I'm livin on that advice. I wear about 3 of my shoes regular, my vaiders, white kenneth coles, and my societys when they effin come in.... Damn shopoverload.com dont shop from those foos, been like 2 weeks my fucking shit hasnt even shipped yet. Fuck them

Yea, so basically black and white. I guess DOA hit me pretty hard. Skinny jeans aint my thing. Maybe slim fit or regular, but never like that super skinny, new boyz shit. Gaudy ass chains and t shirts. Hit em with the simple high quality shit that cost more than their entire outfit. Actually, clown on em with the shoes that cost more than their outfit, and jeans that do too. And a white v neck. :P

Anyways, yea. Weekend was fun, Ryan came over, I helped him get down 6 step to baby freeze, and I practiced a little too. Then i went to dinner with my moms, longhorn, got a chicken thing, didnt finish it. My diets doin me well, my appetite isnt as big and I'm controllin myself from late night snacks.
Sunday only practiced for like an hour when my moms got home, then we went to a family friends house for dinner.

Seriously my dad needs to come home, my moms getting really bored.... All she does is cook, read, and use the computer. I feel kinda bad for her....

I've been writing alot lately, as in poetry. Looks like I've sorta crossed over to lyrics and rap, cuz I've been writing my poems to a certain beat. Right now, its So Ambitious by Jay-Z featuring Pharrell. Fuck yea. Ya'll know pharrell got paid like a mil for snoop doggs drop it likes it hot? My friend whos into producing and makin beats told me.

But yea my interest for clothing and shoes has waned, its more now just about keepin it clean and keepin it fresh. Nothin gaudy, which means kallusive is sorta out the door... Yea. Orisue cut and sew all day though. Fuck yea. And heritage shit.

So yep, ordered some stuff from LRG, should be comin this week, shoes hopefully come in this week, Anny's christmas gift comes in today, gotta reship it to her house again T.T.... I WANT MY SOCIETYS DAMNIT.

FUCK SHOPOVERLOAD.COM.....

Guh

Bleh. I need to practice. Why cant I get a style and keep it? Why do i keep losing it? I need to train with my inspirations, not just watch them and just learn from example. I've done that for years. I need to get real training for real.

And yea, james needs to hurry over, my supras need to be delivered now. Aite yea.

Out

Hmmm fun thought

James put a good question in my head. Who are my biggest influences on dance, and who would I want to train with. By order of their amount of influence on me

1. Lando Wilkins
2. Kevin Brewer
3. Ryan Feng

Who I'd wanna train with? Lando, KB. Not Feng. I feel like Feng wouldnt have much to teach me, but since my style is so geared towards lando and KB, I could learn so much from them.

And which leads me to another thing. In the dance community, atleast in my opinion, once you've reached a certain level, there is no hating, no condescension. Only love, appreciation, and constructive criticism. I feel like dancers all stand to gain from other dancers, regardless of style and ability. Atleast to a certain extent. Ofcourse, I'd learn more from Bang than he would from me, but its all love and learning. Thats how I like to see the dance community. Respect for each other, and through that respect we learn to improve ourselves.

Oh junk

Fucking Supra's are on backorder, not gettin them til next week

But dilemna, do i get LRG cardigan, or lrg sweater pullover and v neck? I really want like 10 grass root v necks as my daily wear, but god knows I cant afford that... And macys doesnt have my size, and i have a macys gift card from christmas. Eff macys... Hate them

Anyways... What else. Oh yea, mirrors in, so sessioning just became my reason to live. I'm in there everyday atleast 2 hours, so I'm developing much faster. I feel like I've got my style basis down, now to just improve and build.

What else. Lovestock?

Almost broke. Cant buy anymore shoes.... for now... T.T

And seriously though, V necks, jeans, Supras = New daily outfit. Spring and Summer approachin, gotta gear up. Fuck yea. Hope I can get those Supra's by next week, and maybe a suprise pair from my dad, he hinted it! White tuf Skytops, come onnnn!

New Mirror!

Holy cow. Yea my mirrors came in yesterday! Mlk day! So the specs, 6x6, its freakin sweet. I'll post pics up next time i get a big session (more than 1 person). But yea me and James are plannin out an illy set for Lovestock. Its gunna be of the hook, like fureal. Its so genius. I didnt get to take pics yesterday, cuz i was just so busy usin the mirror ><

Anyways, yesterday I saw this crew named.... yea not sayin it. Well nvm I am. Trickonometry. They performed at Cultural Beats at Emory, and some other shit that involved my big sis's sorierety. Anyways, thsi crew Trickonometry, they arent that good, theres a few guys in there that can dance, but theres no emotion, no energy, and very sloppy routines. But they're routines overall and some of their tricks, like their tutting section, were really freakin cool. Actually they seemed kinda akin to some of the top tutters such as Moon, and stuff. Then all of a sudden I heard "City is Mine" by Drake come on, and then it hit me. BITERS. No this is somethin new. BYTERS. The new generation of dance biters. The ones that watch some youtube, and steal that shit offline. Its like biting the technological comuter bytes. Hence byters. Yes. Trickonometry is a group of BYTERS. To the max. They stole, in order: Brian Puspos's "City is Mine" choreography, liek the whole thing. The Moon's tutting routine that he posted online. The they did a transition from "The Office" routine by Pacman, Moon, and Hok. Then they stole Andrew Baterina's choreography for "Can't Believe It". Somewhere in there, they stole the move that Quest perfected, where they push Tereda over 3 people while doing a backflip. Except, they did one guy lying on the ground. Then, they stole the stick through the body that Quest uses in their routines, where Feng puts an imaginary pole through Hoks body, and Hok does that thing with his shirt. Yea. No credit given, and it was so blatant. Like the cool ass intro Puspos does for City is Mine, they completely stole it. And they bit with such disrespect to the original chroeography. Its so disgusting. Ones one thing to get inspiration, but to blatantly just copy their moves. Ew.... So I plan on calling out Trickonometry, me and James are gunna do that. Yea

Supra Society hopefully come in today, gettin tired of seein fake supras, gunna clown on those suckas.

What else. Oh yea. Broke up with Anny. Dont know how I feel about it yet, but it was kinda mutual. And me and her are still good friends. But if I ever get time to talk about it, then I will. Just for now though, I've learned. I've matured. I know not to force relationships. If it doesnt work, then it doesnt work. Yea. Anyways!

See you guys later, and I'll get around to posting some pictures of the mirror.

Freakin

Yea. 3 months woohoo!!

Anyways, sleep aint been to great lately, and neither has dancing. I lack motivation when I'm tired, even if I'm just a bit tired. Thats why I need the mirror, thats super extra motivation right there. Cant wait til monday. And this Sunday, I kinda wanna take Anny downtown to go see Canterbury Tales at the Shakespeare Tavern. Dunno if thats her thing, she claims to be a drama freak, lets put her to the test and see if she really appreciates that stuff. I know I am, Chaucer's Canterbury Tales has some of the funniest stories, and lets not forget Shakespeare Taverns crew's reputations. So funny people in there, so yea. Lets hope she can go.

What else. Oh yea. On my diet, lunch gotta stay healthy, not to big on breakfast. Main thing is to exercise, gunna start workin out next week, and gotta make sure not to eat anything other than just my regular meals, maybe a piece of fruit now and then, but nothign outside of meals, which are gunna be smaller. Gotta eat til I'm not hungry, not eat til I'm stuffed.

Who would of thought I would ever need to diet..... Jeez.... But naw seriously, I'm pretty outta shape, and I'm startin to get pretty fat.

pC everyone.

wheeee

Hi
Last week there was a giant cold front, and ATL was hittin like 19 degrees F, and sicne it snowed overnight, they cancelled classes. Which meant a 3 day weekend. I danced every freakin day. And I'm gunna start on a diet and workout plan forealz, and I'm gunna go get some protein powder or somethin like that to help out a little today. Hopefully my new debit card comes in, so its gunna be all good.

My dad left for China yesterday, gunna be about a week or two. The thing is that when my mom leaves, I eat home cooking, but no laundry gets done, and dirty dishes just lay there. When my dads gone, everything is significantly cleaner, but i have to eat out alot. smh...

Oh and yes. GETTIN MIRRORS FOR THE GARAGE FUCKAS. Yes bitches, you heard me. 70 inch, by 72 inch mirrors for the wall of the garage. Its gunna be stoopid sick. Naw, that doesnt even begin to describe. Like fuckin retarted, negative iq. I've already moved in my speakers, and put an extra laptop charger down there to get ready. They comin in on mlk, so this week is gunna be overall pretty badass.

Yea, btw Lando Wilkins is the shit. Rock, paper, scissors, fuck yea.

And maybe some new Supras.... Hehe goin for white leather skytops... Wish me luck


Peace

Back to the same old

So schools back in. I'm not to particularly happy, but atleast this gives me a bit of pattern and discipline in my lifestyle. Honestly, over the break, I'm the laziest person in the world. With school, I wake up at a certain time, and I feel that I appreciate free time and sleep alot more. So that adds a bit of light into my life. I cant say I dont miss lazy days, but atleast I wont be wakin up at 12, and then gettin some fast food. Gotta eat healthy. Gotta avoid the chicken finger trays at school, stickin with the subs.

Also, I've discovered some amazing dancers and choreographers that have been dancing almost as long as I have. I must say though, in my defense, I didnt acquire my appreciation for dancing until like near the end of summer when I met James. So for all intensive purpose I'll say I've been dancing for about half a year. But DJdaniel somethin somethin on youtube, hes the shit. Ionno somethin about him is cool. But right now the most important thing for me is not to bite, and to develop my own style. Thats why I've tried to avoid watching dancing on youtube too much. And I'm tryna find new music to allow myself room to develop. I dont want any songs that I've already seen others dance to, I wanna freshly interpret music, and maybe that way I can develop myself from bottom up.

And yes, that entire epiphany happened in one night


I'm thinkin about getting my own mirror for the garage, to practice. Its gunna cost a shitload, but its a good investment.

Havent been taking pictures in awhile. I like having pictures up, it gives me a chance to reflect on myself. So yea, gunna try and take more pictures and stop bein lazy about uploading. Freakin blogspot couldnt make this any harder.

Anyways, Happy New Years, and to those returning to a regular 9 to 5 grind lifestyle, enjoy the free time and sleep, and dont take it for granted.

And btw, is it just me, or does it smell like up dog in here?















nothin much, how about you?



If that worked, you are a complete sucka

Yea.

Gettin a debit card to cut back on credit card crap. Annoying as hell.

Gotta finish college apps.

Btw today is my parents anniversary, so congrats to them.

Aite back to work